Hi gang, my healthy heart was half destroyed by severe sepsis then infective endocarditis which resulted in life saving surgery. AVR, rebuilding the wall of my heart and repairing the other heart valves. Please watch this program as it might warn you and those you love and prevent the same thing happening to anyone else. l thought l had a tummy bug and wouldn`t let my Husband call an ambulance until it was almost too late l was very close to death, but 92 days later they let me come home. Changing the subject slightly, l am still suffering from flashbacks, and feel very depressed since my hospital stay even though all the Doctors and Nurses and even catering staff were absolutely wonderful to me at Bristol Royal lnfirmary and my Hero Consultant Mr Bryan saved my life twice. Listening to all you lovely people helped me feel l was not alone in my feelings after heart surgery. l have taken advice from help lines and now wear a pretty elasticated bracelet which l twang against my wrist sharply to remind me not to dwell on the past but return to the " here and now" enjoy the day, and look forward to the life l may never have had in the future. lts called cognitive behaviour therapy and it works for me so it might help some of you. Onwards and upwards even if its a long s**t journey. Take care.