So, another week has gone by, did you achieve anything and....

[chloe40]

importantly, are you managing to move forward <3

Chloe

[Caza]

Mixed week but better than last. How about you Chloe?

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Caza]

Glad it's been a little better <3

I've been a bit up and down, I keep changing my mind about whether I want to do this or that, and seem to achieve something and for some reason, then decide I don't want it, so indecisive and I hate it

[Caza in reply to chloe40]

Yes I know what you mean. Decision making is not my strong point these days. Every morning I make a mental list of what I want to achieve that day. I tell no one so if I can’t achieve it it doesn’t matter. I don’t beat myself up if it doesn’t get done but it really makes me feel good if I can tick a few boxes.

[GoGo_JoJo]

Yes, definitely.

3 sea swims with 2 more planned over the weekend.

Daily exercises

4 runs with two more planned bringing my weekly total to at least 30 miles.

4 days of work, some days exasperating but overall a decent weeks work.

A leisurely Weds with a lovely long chat on the beach with a fairly new friend watching the tide recede after our swim

Spotted lots of beautiful wildlife throughout it all including deer, both roe and fallow, a pair of herons, a little Egret, stonechat, green woodpecker, greater spotted woodpecker, my regular buzzards, lots of foxes, and a stoat.

Tomorrow I'll take my newish elderly friend with me to Tesco to get her shopping. When I met her, I remembered the pain of losing my dear friend Catherina and paused at the wisdom of befriending someone else I'm likely to lose... but of course that's ridiculous. She is a fascinating lady and needs a bit of help and a friend. How could I not do what I can?

Pic from Selsey beach sunrise swim on Monday (whilst technically at work 🤣)

Sea

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to GoGo_JoJo]

I admire you’re energy Jo!

I think it’s just within you to befriend those that clearly need you too!

Chloe

[Caza]

Wow. I love swimming but sea swimming in this weather no chance! It’s meant to be so good for your mental health. I know exactly what you mean about letting people in. I’ve lost so many loved ones not just through death but by bitter marriage break ups that I don’t think I’ll ever totally let myself get too close to anyone again. Even my puppy ☹️ Poor boy, fortunately everyone adores him so he gets lots of love and affection but for me there’s this barrier that I can’t seem to lower.

[GoGo_JoJo in reply to Caza]

There are little reminders to loss most days but I can't change the past and I'm loathe to sacrifice the future. I don't want to allow bitterness into my soul in the way my mother did. It led her to a lonely end.

Loss and pain are the price of love it seems. We can survive, and thrive if we accept that 💞

[chloe40 Administrator]

Go JO Go! love your words, determined and gritty <3

Chloe