Got told by the paramedics today that I’m an enigma!
I’ve had asthma since I was two and I’m now thirty two, my wheeze has always been upper respiratory and my SATS are always 100% I have stridor with every attack and I’m that calm that paramedics have walked in and said, ‘oh it is you, you’re very calm’ my peak flow also only ever dips and dramatically when I have an attack, it goes down to about 200 if I can manage one during an attack and at my best it is 450-500. My specialist has told me not to take my peak flow every day as it’s not a good indicator for me as even when I’m full of cold it only goes down to 420.
I’ve being diagnosed with vocal cord dysfunction but I can tell the difference between the attacks and I found out last year my nut allergy was diagnosed, my body produces too much histamine when I’m stressed, run down or my immune system is low and that makes me have reactions, but I can tell the difference between all three. I know it can be hard to believe but imagine my respiratory system is like a car engine, I use it every day, I know how it works and can detect when it’s not running right and can tell the subtle differences between the different reasons for not being able to breathe.
The problem I experience is because my asthma is not ‘text book’ whatever that is, some paramedics, doctors, don’t know what to do with me and can’t explain/understand why I respond to drugs so quickly. It really gets me down because it seems like nobody believes me and despite the fact that when I got to A&E today, I still had a very audible wheeze and had been blue lighted in, I was taken off a neb because my SATS were 100% and Id had a lot of medication. The doctor was asking me questions I clearly couldn’t answer because I was struggling for breath and when I scribbled this down on a piece of paper the nurse told me there was no need to be rude! They also told me not to panic, not being funny, love but have you ever tried not being able to breathe and being taken off the medication that helps you?! Even the calmest, most laid back person in the world would struggle to keep calm when they’re struggling to breathe. Why do people not understand how scary it is?
Sorry for the massive post! I’m frustrated, tired, feel vile from the four nebs, hydrocortisone and adrenaline and would just appreciate not being treated like a freak!