I had postpartum psychosis when my previous baby was 7 months old. I had my third baby 3 weeks ago, and have had 3 hallucinations at separate occasions and the odd moments of confusion/forgetfulness. My perinatal nurse was concerned as these were my early symptoms last time but said equally it could just be sleep deprivation.
Last time I could hear a noise in my head which sounded like 2 different tones of ringing, and last night I could hear that again.
Last time I thought my brain was breaking up into bricks and the devil had inhabited my brain. I could physically feel it breaking up.
My brain feels brittle again and I can’t shake the feeling that it’s made of glass. But I’m worried that it might be a soft material that if someone put their hand through it, it might break. Writing this down I know it sounds nuts.
Does this sound like the pp has returned if I know how nuts this sounds, and it’s just a feeling?
I called the out of hours team when I started getting more forgetful moments and the noise in my head and they will get someone to call me tomorrow. But if I tell them what I’ve written here, will they automatically hospitalise me?
I have 2 boys who are 6 and 4, my little girl is amazing chilled and I have adapted really well to life with 3. I am so scared of being hospitalised and to have to leave home again, and how that would affect my boys.