So unfair

[Marshman]

Do you ever feel like why did it happen to me? Why can other people have babies with no problems and I have to carry with me everything that happened? Basically saw some girls I went to school with, women now really, at the local soft play and all I could think was why couldn't it have happened to you? Which is a horrible thing to think but I just think why did it have to be me 😥

[Jocelyn_at_APP Partner APP]

Hi Marshman,

I completely resonate with how you are feeling.

Accepting that I had PP out of the blue was a huge thing for me. I wanted to know why it had happened to me and if there was anything I could have done differently to prevent it. At the end of the day, I think for me, getting PP was just a horrible and unlucky lottery that unfortunately I won! It has taken me a while to get to this stage and accept that there was nothing I could have done.

It can be difficult to see other people who may not have struggled as much as you and I, and I really understand how you feel.

You have been through such a journey and you are amazing! Please remember that!

We are here for you!

Jocelyn

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP]

Hello Marshman,

It’s a really hard thing seeing people who’ve had it seemingly “plain sailing” in their pregnancies and having babies. It really hurts sometimes doesn’t it. And in turn of course you feel bad for feeling that way. It’s a real mixture of emotions. Try to accept that these are all normal and rational feelings.

Coming to terms with the fact that when I had my son, it just “wasn’t my day” was such a huge step in my recovery and kind of acceptance at what happened.

We all get it. Take heart in how well you’ve done. We all think you’re brilliant 🤩.

Take care.

Rachel x

[DM_110]

Hi Marshman,

I’m sure all of us have felt or had thoughts like this at some point. I struggled with these thoughts too and tried hard to understand what led to this awful frightening condition where I lost control over myself. Moreover the depression and anxiety that followed it. What I said to myself is that just like other people can get cancer or other life-threatening traumatic illnesses, I had to or was chosen to experience this traumatic illness in my life which I had no control over. The most positive thing about this illness which I was told again and again from various sources is the prognosis and recovery - they say you get 100% recovered from this condition even though it may take a year. I am just past a whole year from my episode and feel almost recovered.

Be strong, wishing you the best!

[hope2929]

I feel exactly the same way! It is so unfair that this happened to us. Time has helped me but I still flash back to the time before the psychosis happened and wish that it could have been different. I was doing so well until it happened and it changed my whole life. The only thing I can say is that this wasn’t our fault and with help we will get better.

[Marshman in reply to hope2929]

You are amazing! ♥️

[hope2929 in reply to Marshman]

Thank you! So are you!