PTSD

[Poulson]

Dear Ladies.

I have just been lying down doing my meditating again. I little voice in my head, not my own, was saying, You have been misdiagnosed so many times, Paranoid Schizophrenia. Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Post-Partum Psychosis and Post-natal Depression, had horrible things said about you in your medical records, How dare they? It was such a surreal experience.

As I have said before, I believe in God, and what goes around comes around. I believe I have got a Guardian Angel watching over me. When was 13 my grandfather died and I was devastated. I sobbed at his funeral. I was his favourite as I was always top of the class at school and he would insist I watched Johnny Ball Reveals All rather than cartoons when I was a child.

After my grandfather died though, I never cried at funerals, as I believe in God and the Resurrection and that we will see our loved ones again. When my grandmother and other grandad died I was upset don't get me wrong but I never cried. I come from one of the largest families in Sheffield and when my grandmother died she had 7 children, 27 grandchildren, 40 odd great grandchildren and so many great-great grandchildren. She was in the Sheffield Star when she died in 1999.

We would all go to her house at New Years Eve time and have a pick of chocolate off the Christmas tree. Unfortunately, she never saw the millennium.

I have some wonderful memories of my own children, so why did my family and ex-husband, who died a horrible death of Swine Flu! make my life so difficult that they tried to take my children away from me? All I can surmise is that they were all narcissists and would do and say anything about me to get their own way.

Best Wishes X