PTSD

[Poulson]

Dear All.

I have decided not to press charges against my family. I have already made it common knowledge with a few good friends and they are supporting me. I have already forgiven them that many times over the years that it proves to me that I am a good person and not the ogre I have been made out to be.

My daughter rang me yesterday and said to me, I am only going to say this once mother, don't ring me anymore, don't come to my house, don't text me and keep away from me and Ben. My mother has finally done what she set out to do 30 years ago, to turn my daughter against me.

Fortunately, they have not got to my son yet, although there is still time yet. My family will have to pay the price to a higher power than myself, of that I am certain. I am a Christian and have the good memories of my children. I believe in God, and what goes around comes around, but not at the expense of myself and my husband. My husband is behind me 100% whichever way I decide to go.

I have got an interview on Wednesday for some part-time Admin work. I had the opportunity of a full time job, but I can only work part-time as my husband is 74 and is in a wheelchair and housebound. He broke his back 4 years ago, after the GP was giving him the wrong medication for 6 years, but that is another story.

[Bluelady-sing]

Wow.

What charges are you going to press against family?

Sorry to hear about your husband

[Poulson in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Dear Pumpkins

I was going to press charges against y 2 brothers cousin and mother and father for neglect. My 2 elder brothers and cousin were abusing me from the age of 7-12 years old. I got caught pregnant with my brother and my mother and GP covered it up. As a result of the abuse I have been in and out of hospital and prison twice. My family have done their best to turn the rest of the family against me, even though I have done no wrong. As a result I have been left with Complex PTSD.

I struggle with my mental health every day because of all the trauma I have been through. The Psychiatrist have diagnosed me with every diagnosis under the sun, until I finally sued them in 2009 for medical negligence, I was awarded £25.000.00. I have seen that many different psychiatrists that no-one knows what I have got. I was diagnosed with Bipolar in 2009, but I am not sure. I have asked for a second opinion in writing.

Best Wishes X

[Bluelady-sing in reply to Poulson]

I also believe I was wrongly diagnosed, based on social factors. How did you go about bringing the claim?

[Bluelady-sing in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Do you have children

[Poulson in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Dear Pumpkins.

Yes, I have a daughter and son. My daughter is 30 and my son is 22. I have an 18 month old granddaughter. Because of my parents influence my daughter told me yesterday she wants nothing more to do with me. I brought litigation against the health authority by just enlisting a good solicitor and barrister. People do not realise the trauma I have been put through in my life., with abusive brothers, partners narcissistic parents and a health authority that still keeps trying to put the blame on me. I am one of the most caring, thoughtful and understanding and empathetic people going, but I have jut had enough now.

Best wishes X

[Bluelady-sing in reply to Poulson]

Are you ok?

You mentioned prison, your not going to do anything silly as you have made good career progress.

Remember the abuser will be enjoying life at YOUR expense.

If an injunction is sought they will have no right to be on your life.

In the future the abusers like Bill Cosby, egg... egg do face justice.

Take care poulson xxxxx.

I know injustice is hard yo live with, lives get ruined.

I also believe in karma

[Poulson in reply to Bluelady-sing]

No Pumpkins. I am not going to do anything silly, I am too much in control for that. My mother is an evil woman and my father is an enabler. My brothers and cousin have systematically tried to ruin my life. I have already had death threats from on of my brothers if I start to accuse him. My mother has protected my family for long enough, it is about time she pays for what she has done to me. I may still lose contact with my son and granddaughter if I do press charges. That will be devastating.

Best wishes X

[Poulson in reply to Poulson]

Hi Pumpkins.

Just to explain the reason I went to prison.

My ex-husband, who died of swine flu in 2009, Karma, had myself and my daughter evicted from the house when my daughter was 16 and got an injunction order against me. When I was living with my ex-husband it came out that his father was a paedophile, abusing his daughter. He took my son up to his fathers and I went up there to get my son away from him. My ex-husband rang the police on me, like he had so many times when I was married to him and I was arrested and sent to prison. The prison guards looked after me and made sure I had a shower everyday.

All of this trauma I have been through is simply because my mother, father, cousins and brothers and ex-husband were trying to cover up that they were in the wrong. I have had enough of their crap now.

[Chick44nzrn]

Dear Poulson . First best of luck with your job interview; with all those qualifications you have you’ll do very well I’m sure.

I was horrified to read what a dreadful time you had growing up . Sadly this kind of dreadful abuse isn’t an isolated case ; you must be a strong woman to have survived it and gone on to have a career and a family.

It’s good to know your husband and your friends are very much on your side !

I hope you can enjoy the sunshine at least for some of the day . The truth is the truth and no one can take that away no matter how they protest . Their guilt must be very painful baggage for them.

Denise x