Hi Everyone,
Its starting again...its all so bloody sad as she seemed so much better...we have a meeting set up for tomorrow but from talking to someone going to the meeting they are planning on doing home treatment..how in the hell thats going to work when she won't even touch her baby because hes talking and laughing at her and we are all in this with him...I'm so upset as really felt that we had turned a corner and life was looking really good...
I’m so sorry. I can’t offer any help other than to say I’m thinking of you all, and praying. I had similar delusions about other people talking about me, but not my son (I’m ashamed to say I didn’t even think of him as a person, just a thing). She will get better. She’s lucky to have you.
Hello RedRosie36
I'm sorry to hear how stressful things are for you at the moment. You might have heard recovery from PP described as a rollercoaster, which it is as there are many ups and downs on the way.
I hope the meeting tomorrow will be helpful as you will be able to hear the plan to help your daughter. After my second PP I received home treatment as my other son was six. During this time I had regular visits from my Psychiatrist, CPN, Health Visitor and Social Worker. At one point I remember saying there were too many people in the house! It must be very upsetting to see that your daughter can't touch her baby but it's the illness that is holding her back and try as she might she can't help this.
During my recovery I was hit with depression and at times went into hospital as an inpatient for treatment. Eventually with the good support of the home treatment team I did eventually fully recover. I know it's such a disappointment when your daughter was doing so well but she will be well again in her own time. You have been a great strength for her to lean on and you will get through this together ........ Take care.
Dear RedRosie,
I hope your meeting goes well today, I have been thinking about you. I think I have mentioned to you before that I really struggled when I came home. Just briefly I was initially on a pscyh ward and then came home, three months later I admitted myself to an MBU and then came home about a month later. It was really hard for me to settle back at home, and I often questioned my mental state, would I get ill again ? was I going to be ok ? what had happened to me ? and with all this going on and a baby to look after, and back in the family home with all the stresses of everyday life and trying to meet the expectations of everyone and being a Mum which is just the hardest job ever the struggle was real. I was lonely and felt isolated, I had lost myself and was recovering from a terrible illness I knew nothing about. MBU provides a safe secure environment with staff on hand all the time to help, you are never on your own (which I found really helpful). I am sure this is just a blip and I had plenty of them. Remind yourselves how far you have come, I found this helpful and try to be patient, which is the hardest thing ever. It took me a while to process and accept what had happened to me and once I had I was able to recover fully. I also had trust issues with my family and husband as I felt let down by them but now I know they did their best in very difficult times. Live will be good real soon. Feel free to message me with any questions. Keep up the great work of supporting your daughter and look after yourself. Marie x
Hello RedRosie36,
I am sorry that it is such a roller coaster experience -
PPP creates awful loads of challenges for everybody involved. My partner had been traumatised by the treatment I received, which was unfortunately not in an MBU when sectioned.
I usually do not compare establishments, but deep down I know that your daughter has the best specialists at hand who are experts in peri and postnatal mental health.
Wishing you all the best for the upcoming meeting. Maybe you would like to brain storm a bit by creating a list or mind mapping, so that you are prepared...addressing your worries and concerns and how to develop further strategies in order to help and support your daughter.
1. any medical questions
2. progression of care plan
3. support network and objectives
4. therapeutic path of bonding time of mum and baby
etc. (just a few ideas)
Wishing you as always loads of strengths, you are such an admirable super mum...
x
Hi RedRosie36, I'm so sorry to hear that things are hard for your family again. I hope the appointment went well, we are all thinking of you and wishing you all the best. Try and look after yourself too, take care, xx
I just wanted to write and say I’m thinking of you red Rosie, my experience of recovery from pp was that it was up and down with blips, and your daughter will come through this. It sounds like she has some really good support in place. We are all thinking of you xx
Hello RedRosie36,. I am an APP volunteer Grandmother, that is I have not suffered PP myself but my daughter suffered Postpartum Psychosis 18months ago.
I am so sorry that you and your daughter have had such a hard time and hope that the recent meeting was helpful. Obviously every sufferers' experience is different but there is no denying the shock, trauma and worry
that is involved for them and for the family.
It was hard to watch my daughter suffer something I had no knowledge of and to see her in an MBU even though that was the best place. I think one of the worries I had was a feeling of helplessness but have come to realise that just being there and supporting where I could, was a help.
It seems that you have been doing such a good job supporting and giving, so do, as others have said, take care of yourself.
Unfortunately the up and down nature of PP is frustrating to say the least, I thought my daughter had been lost to me but believe me she and her baby (her first) are now doing really well.
No magic cure, however, lots of caring support, as I found here from Action Postpartum team.
Very best wishes x
It is truly wonderful that a mum of a daughter, can share their love and dedication, not only for their own child, but have enough energy and vitality to spread out their wings to others in need. Therefore thank you NanaJudith.
Thank you Jasa. You and your fellow brave PP sufferers are an inspiration. x
Dear RedRosie36
I truly hope that you have had a positive outcome with regards to the meeting, whereby all needs have been reconsidered for your daughter's recovery.
We are all thinking of you and your daughter. There is no need to response...just letting you know that we are in the background...
x
Hello RedRosie36
I hope you are well and coping with the ups and downs of your daughter's recovery. Does your daughter now have home treatment following the meeting? I know you were at a loss to know how it would work but as I mentioned earlier here, it eventually worked for me during my second recovery from PP. As always you have been a great support but please make sure that you also have someone to lean on.
We are here to listen too ........
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