I am still having nightmares about being psychotic and being sectioned three and a half years after having PPP and 18 months after returning to the psychiatric hospital there with a relapse psychosis caused by stress. I've woken up today realising that a lot of the current relationship, stress and sleep issues I am having at the moment are linked to re-activation of my fears around this hospital and what I experienced/saw and did and this is the root cause of my problems. I did have CBT after I came home but this was dealing with the depression I had with my baby at the time and then the second time for stress management. I feel that I probably have some form of post-traumatic stress (an example being that whenever I hear a siren or alarm going off it reminds me of the constant alarms on the ward) and still hate certain colours in my home. I had a breakdown earlier in the week due to many things going on in my life including discovering I have a pre-cancerous growth and was recommended to go for respite in a local community mental health house. Just being inside this house (in the same town as the hospital away from my home town) for five minutes re-activated my phobia about mental health facilities and I checked out and found myself a lovely hotel to stay in for 3 nights.
I am already signed up for weekly counselling (I've got 11 sessions left) and I've decided to finally use this time for 'therapy' about my psychosis and the hospital in the hope that the nightmares can stop and I can heal some damaged relationships.
Does anyone else have experience or advice they can offer while I go through this therapy which is bound to be very painful for me or suggest any books or resources?
(As you can gather I think mental health facilities in this country (UK) are shockingly bad!) On a positive note I've applied for a local grant to makeover the dirty unwelcoming crisis bedroom at this respite house and find out tomorrow if my application is successful - fingers crossed!