Sorry to be a new years party pooper . During the holidays as I get older the more anxiety and depressed I become . I am so disappointed in myself , i am usually a trooper that keeps going with a chin up. My siblings fight and exhaust me , some of us don’t even talk. My parents died when I was younger and thats how I got my anxiety. I have a great kid ( who is now in college) and family , and forever thankful. But just seems I am more down during the holidays and exhausted , my moods are up and down . My sibling Family hurts and makes me lonely, because I refuse to be toxic like most of them, so I don’t hang around them. Just makes me wonder does it ever get easier with extended family . Does it seems like holidays are a struggle as we get older? 😐 . Happy New Year everyone , hope the new years brings us more strength, health and happiness .