I'm a mess.

[Islande_King]

I dont know what to do with my self RN.

There is a part of me that feels Inspired to go draw and plan out the many upcoming things I have.

But then another part of me feels like what is the point. Why bother.

I'm mainly worried that I'm low key dying of cell phone radiation from my tablet (don't even know if thats a thing.)

Especially this week, I've been really sick and of cour key probably just a bug) im automatically dying.

It started off Tuesday morning with a little itchy feeling in the back of my throat, which is usually the first time for me, that I'm going to be sick.

Anywho.

For some reason I proceeded to go along my DA and by noon, it was a sore throat. And do you know what my dumb self did? I had cake and ice cream.

So the day continues and by six in the evening I'm done.

Like fr I'm sick.

So I'm sneezing at this point and I'm barely conscious, I go home and all of a sudden all this mucus from literally no where just comes pouring out my mouth and nose.

So i go to bed and Wednesday I woke up, I watched my different world and I felt better and everyday since then ive felt better.

See now I don't even understand why I felt like how I listen previously because now im a whole lot better.

I'm a mess.

[Agora1]

Islande_King, you're not a mess, you were just overthinking when you started feeling ill in wondering where this was going to take you. Personally, I think the cake and ice cream was a great idea if it made you forget about being sick for a while

As a good nurse, you took care of yourself doing the right thing. After all, we all get sick from one time to another. Anxiety may try to make more of it than what it is. A little virus you may have picked up, nothing more, nothing life threatening.

The only thing making you confused and a mess now is not accepting that you are well again and trying to figure out why that happened. It's over with Sometimes being in the medical field plays against us. The average person, gets sick, uses that as a time to pamper themselves knowing that it will be gone in 7 days or a week. With the medical person, they are always ready to diagnose something more sinister that they may have. We can't be our own doctors or nurse for that fact.

Be thankful now, you are well. Try not to put your energies into all the possibilities out there that can shorten our life. Doing that you are no longer living it to the fullest. My best to you always xx