I'm wondering if what I am experiencing is some form of depersonalisation. It's hard to describe exactly how I feel. I don't feel dreamlike or unreal like I've heard dp described but I have this really weird feeling about myself like my inner person isn't who I thought I was or is alien to me in somehow. I get this weird feeling like I'm not me or that I'm somehow different and I get a massive knot of dread and fear in my stomach and surge of a weird feeling like I am recoiling from myself and a weird emotion I can't describe like it's unbearable to be in my own skin and live my life doing normal things I usually do everyday without thinking about. I get an overwhelming feeling I can't cope. Also when in this state I try to ground my sense of self by thinking about memories of my past but it's like I can't feel how I felt then, or it's like I felt this terrible dread feeling then even though I know intellectually and logically I didn't. I feel like something inside me has changed. I also get this weird guilty shameful feeling like I'm in some way bad. I feel scared of myself and my mind/emotions and have the compelling urge to keep checking inwards and self monitor. I get this weird feeling like everything I have done in my life was fake along with a feeling of inner panic. Can anyone relate? Also get a weird feeling when watching people on tv. A terrible bleak feeling comes over me and I almost feel like I have done whatever they are doing (I know I haven't ) but with this horrible dark ugly depressing feeling. Very bizarre. Can anyone remotely relate or have I completely lost my mind?