Constant anxiety, not attacks.

[showmethelight]

I suffer intensely from both anxiety and depression. Have been on current AD's for 7 weeks, and they havn't helped al all. The last lot I was on for 3 weeks I had to stop, intensified the anxiety so much even with lorazeapam. I am going to see a psychiatrist on Mon. It was meant to be today but he was sick. I have been taking lorazepam for just over 2 months now. With me I don't get panic attacks or anxiety attacks but I do feel very anxious and it lasts the whole day. Which is so draining, I got home from work yesterday at 5.30pm, and slept through to this morning untill 7.30am. I still havn't yet got out of bed, it's another 15mins until I have to. I have suffered this is the past, around when I was 19/20, I am 26 now. It is so much harder as I am from NZ, and can't recieve any sickness benefits here in Aussie. I have been so so tempted to go home and live with mum, but the reason I came here was to do a course that I cannot do back home. The course has just started this week, and already I am thinking how am I going to get through it (studying to become an anaesthetic technician). My house lease also finished, so I have just moved a week ago in with strangers, (they seem nice at least). I am also starting a new job next week as I just couldnt stand the one I was in anymore, so much sitting around dwelling on my thoughts, fears etc.

I was such a wreck knowing I had all these changes coming up and Mum actually flew out here and stayed with me in a little apartment away from my old flatmates for 3 weeks. It meant the world to me that she came as we are very close, but I still didn;t feel any better on the inside. I have been crying everyday, when I am alone, talking to her every day for encouragement, support. She has said so many times "why dont i just come home so we can get you right". But it all seems to hard for me to do that by myself, sell my car with fincance on it, and back out of all these 3 new things I have just started. Im so overwhelmed and hoping the Dr can sort out my head as their is no happiness/joy in my life atm, only constant worry, fear, stress, scared of failing.

[pizzi]

H there. Just remember Ad's take 3-4 weeks to thoroughly get settled in your system, maybe more. Its depends on your body some are different than others. Some take longer, some take less time. But the beginning weeks its completely normal for it to make your anxiety and depression worse which some ppl don't know and most doctors wont tell you.

[saresrunning]

you seem to be doing a lot of things, working, studying, living with strangers (which is really stressful in itself sometimes). Can you pull back from something / study part time or work part time. Are you putting yourself under a lot of pressure and overworking. With anxiety you need time to rest exercise etc. Maybe you have got too much new stuff on too quickly. Can you pput studying off this semester and start the next one when you are settled in your job and housing situation? Dont know if that helps. Anxiety will pass eventually with management but sometimes you have to cut back on stuff , which is frustrating and hard decision espically if you are driven to get your course done. xx

[Mysteryreader]

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[Mysteryreader in reply to Mysteryreader]

sorry my post disappeared. Perhaps you need to discus with the psychiatrist your current situation and how you feel about it. Do they have any suggestions about what might help? Do you have the option of doing your course part time or working fewer hours? Do you think you might be able to get support from others on the course? I know several students that offer guidance to each other.

mr