My daily panic attack at 8pm

[Against_the_current]

I had an anxiety attack and am still having it and went outside and worried myself sick what are mom and sis doing up. Once they were on a really bad twrms and mom used even when im in the toilet to abuse sis.Mom wanted me to teach sis German because she didn't want to do it herself. And when i panic i forget even Bulgarian. Apparently when i panic i forget all my vocabulary. Only have some images in my head of past abuse in bulgarian and the only partly coherent sentences i have are in English. My vision is blurry. I can't breathe. Im having flashbacks. I'm particularly paralyzed. Thank you for responding, it's emergency, just im too lightheaded to respond coherently. I feel like I will die. Or i am already dead. I don't feel real. I see 17feb 2022 abuse in my head. How can i be having such a severe panic attack even after 2mg Clonasepam?

[Starrlight]

breathe in slow deep breaths then breathe out slow longer breaths

focus on only the breathing and really really focus your attention there

[SoporRose in reply to Starrlight]

I second Starrlight's advice. It won't change the situation, but it will allow your body to loosen up. I hope you'll tell your therapist what you wrote here. It reads like your mind is getting ready to bring some memories to light. Showing her this post might help her guide you to a bit of a breakthrough.

[Wakeboarder24]

have you tried a simple nose breathe. Don’t even need to deep breathes just a nose breathe.

[Against_the_current]

Thank you