It has been awhile since I posted on here..
I feel like I am slipping back into what I worked so hard to overcome. My sleep has been terrible. My appetite has been almost non-existent for majority of the days. I feel utterly drained in every way possible. I feel so sad and alone. I am in my last semester of college. I just started 2 weeks ago and I am already struggling tremendously to keep focused. This saddens me because I have a goal for myself to go to graduate school. How am I supposed to get a graduate degree when I can’t even make it through this semester. It doesn’t help that when I open up to my boyfriend I get the same responses (“ I don’t know what to say” or “I don’t know if I can keep up”). This just makes me feel even worse about myself. All I want is to be told that I can get past this or he will be here with me through it all. Instead, I only feel like I hate myself more and more. I am trying to keep a positive mindset and weather the storm. All that goes on in my mind is how exhausting it is to be here. I try to find good reasons to keep me wanting to be here. It seems my reasons are only diminishing as the days go on.
