Useless Rant

[gnsbao13]

It has been awhile since I posted on here..

I feel like I am slipping back into what I worked so hard to overcome. My sleep has been terrible. My appetite has been almost non-existent for majority of the days. I feel utterly drained in every way possible. I feel so sad and alone. I am in my last semester of college. I just started 2 weeks ago and I am already struggling tremendously to keep focused. This saddens me because I have a goal for myself to go to graduate school. How am I supposed to get a graduate degree when I can’t even make it through this semester. It doesn’t help that when I open up to my boyfriend I get the same responses (“ I don’t know what to say” or “I don’t know if I can keep up”). This just makes me feel even worse about myself. All I want is to be told that I can get past this or he will be here with me through it all. Instead, I only feel like I hate myself more and more. I am trying to keep a positive mindset and weather the storm. All that goes on in my mind is how exhausting it is to be here. I try to find good reasons to keep me wanting to be here. It seems my reasons are only diminishing as the days go on.

[Roia]

I think you need professional support at this point. Sometimes we are lucky enough to get that from people we love like family, friends, significant others. Yet not everyone is equipped to handle difficult situations let alone educated on how to communicate with people in distress. Please find a good therapist and don't forget about self care as well. It's essential! And if you need to take meds for a while that's ok too.

Stay healthy, best of luck!