No one... no one

Made it this far, to give up.

Whether you question yourself why you keep on going. It’s good that you’re doing that. It’s you reminding yourself how strong you are. The answer to the question is so irrelevant and can be easy to get lost in. When the answer to the whole SITUATION is looking and realizing that you’re doing that. That, being why you’re still here.

I experience suicidal ideation several times every day. I don’t hate my life m, I don’t hate myself. I’m not proud of how things got leading me to now. But I’m here, i don’t think it can get worse and if it does, well. I’m still excited for the future 🙂

No one can ever, should never, will ever, have a voice in who you are. End of the day it’s you allowing it to happen. I let myself get stomped on, daily, without notice.

I work on trusting again, after going 27 years suspecting possible deceit and betrayal. And to actually prove myself right..... well. lol what can I say, I did say I don’t like being wrong and I like to think I “know it all”

Fuck all that honestly, I’m happy now. I’m happy I found this community. If not for this platform (app) I would’ve been done a long time ago. I had so much frustration and anger from feeling slave driven. I long for my companion now, the thought of it makes me smile 😳😌

I said in the past that I wouldn’t change a single thing in my life if I could. I want to change that, I would do anything to get her back. 😶

K.. that’s it for now

Love you all. Stay strong and never fuckjng give up you hear me !! 😅❤️

[Starrlight]

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