Vacay During Lockdown

So many of you have been very kind and supportive. I want to thank you for caring and listening to my rants with so much sincerity. Today is my first day of vacay from work. I am going to try and take this time to recharge my body and mind from all the hate and negativity that our world has become. It won’t be easy, but I will do my best to remember what all of you have told me. It really has helped me and gives me positive thoughts.

My career use to be my sanctuary, but now I feel I am a nurse thrown into war being stalked by a silent killer. You cannot see it coming, you cannot hear it and you have very little to fight with. My dreams use to be full of happiness, but now if I am even able to sleep the good dreams are gone. They have become nightmares full of the screams of loved ones, of patients crying because they don’t want to die, and hate for yourself because you can’t fix it. I have become a nurse, a therapist and a soldier over night. I’m trying and I’m fighting, I really am!

The worse part is I can’t call my best friends anymore. I thought when my parents died due to a car accident that nothing would be harder then this. But to add all this death and hate in the world on top of it......quite frankly I want my mommy!😔I want her to brush my hair out of my eyes as she always did and tell me its going to be ok. I want my daddy to smile and say “Kitten you are not a quitter you never have been”! I want them back! I am trying to get off my little pity pot, but I still catch myself as I go to call them and realize they are gone. So I listen to their voicemails which just makes it worse. Again, thank you for caring and letting me whine about my pain! 💕

[ColorMeYellow]

My heart breaks for you.

[Mary-intussuception]

❤️🌹🌹🌹❤️

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xXx

[Hb2003]

Your amazing we care about you

[Hidden]

You are doing such an important job, you need to hope that people will give you a thank you for the difficult work you undertake.

It is such an unpleasant year 2020 and our lives have all been put on hold, this has not helped anyone especially if they are going through rough times. Then we are all called to lock ourselves away in our own homes and so many people are climbing the walls.

Both sides of the Pond we are all having problems with those in charge of the country and that is getting everyone upset

All I can say is hopefully we will all wake up and smell the flowers and start to all behave themselves

BOB

[Agora1]

Sending you a gentle hug to let you know I care xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you💕