Choosing

[tppppppp]

Does anyone else feel like they have everything on the world and they are choosing to be miserable? Like they just can't help themselves?!?! That's exactly how I feel. Everyone else is looking at me like "what's his deal" and I have no answer for them ya know? Like if I just shut up and relax I'll all of a sudden feel better. Why am I trying to blow my life to pieces? It just makes no sense.

[Damonlover16_99]

I constantly feel this way. I have my physical health, I have a house and food and a degree and all that. But I'm so ridiculously miserable. It makes no sense

[tppppppp in reply to Damonlover16_99]

Word up. In with you. I've tried to make sense of it but that's just made it worse I think.

[tppppppp in reply to Damonlover16_99]

I have everything you have but add on a beautiful wife and two amazing kids. And a loving family. It's so Fucking ridiculous. I dont get it?!?!?!,!

[-Sasha-]

I ask myself that same question, "what's your problem?" I don't even know how to answer it.

I think it's a combination of the depression and being too hard on ourselves tho. I'd tell myself to get up, to stop being lazy, that things aren't even that bad, that I'm just making up excuses. Yet, I'd tell you that just because things could always be worse, it doesn't change what you're going through and what you're feeling. We don't cut ourselves enough slack and just say "this isn't me it's the depression." We are our own worst enemies.

[JAYnLA]

Isn't the whole answer "I have depression and / or anxiety"? I think losing touch with gratitude when in pain is very very human. Getting back in touch with it is the work of healing.

[Callie67]

Totally get what you mean. Sometimes I’ve felt like I just don’t know how to be happy and am always waiting for something to go wrong.

[explorerPHX in reply to Callie67]

i can relate. definitely have had the feeling that it's like i don't know how to be happy, or to have fun or stuff like that. like i have forgotten what it's like to enjoy something.