DEPRESSED- CHRONIC BACK & NECK- FIBROMALGIA- ... FEEL INVISIBLE, UNIMPORTANT & A BURDEN

[Cocoon3]

SEVERELY DEPRESSED - past suicide attempts (fighting dark thoughts now)

CHRONIC BACK & NECK PAIN

FIBROMALGIA

INVISIBLE- UNIMPORTANT- BURDEN - ALONE

NOONE TRIES TO UNDERSTAND ANY OF MY ILLNESSES

[crissi23]

I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time. It is torturous to feel you are deep, stuck in that dark hole with no way out and all you feel is pain; physical/ emotional/ mental. From the depths of your soul to your eye sockets. I recall not caring how much more pain I had to endure or how long it took to just finally know what peace was like for a tenth of a second.

I am aware one of the worst phrases a mentally pained person can hear is "I know how you feel". I do not know how YOU feel. I do know how I feel when I am at the lowest low of my depression and suicidal. The worst episode I had, I have no words for; but I will always carry the scars. Physically and mentally.

Those hours were the worst of my life, and I haven't had the easiest (or the worst) life.

Back to you...your pain. When I say I'm sorry I am not just placating; which is why I seemingly selfishly went on about my own partial experience first. There were a few more but that was the worst. November 29, 2012. I was in my 30's. A late bloomer...

I haven't done my intro yet because your post really 'grabbed' my attention. I'm still here and I'm glad you are, too. I tell myself, "One step in front of another." Even if I just make it to the couch that day.

Make it to the couch today!

~ C