yea.

[mab1219]

i just wish everything would stop. please someone who understands talk to me

[anxiouswidow]

Hello. I’m new on the forum, I finally decided to get some help online because nothing else is working.

I understand wanting everything to stop. I’ve been hospitalized 3 times for suicidal ideation. My advice is take everything minute by minute and find something positive to hold onto.

[mab1219 in reply to anxiouswidow]

i dont have anything positive to hold onto

[anxiouswidow in reply to mab1219]

Ok, I am someone who understands, and from reading others posts it seems like they might too. Hold onto the fact that you are not alone in how you feel.

[Hidden]

Make something positive! Do u. Have u got anything u like doing? If u do then try ur best to do it and find the motivation to do it! Life will get better you will be ok just hold on! Always message me if u need to talk x

[mab1219 in reply to Hidden]

i like to play piano. and thank you

[Windy101 in reply to mab1219]

I've always wanted to play piano. Is there anyone who enjoys hearing you play, or do you play mostly on your own? I've always imagined it would be a great outlet for emotions and creativity. Good for you for your talent! That it something to hold on to.

When I'm at my lowest of lows, I think to myself that all I have to do is keep breathing and living. That's it. I think of the excruciating pain I would cause my family and the impact suicide can have through the generations. I don't want that to be my legacy.

Sometimes I lift myself up by practicing random acts of kindness. I know it sounds cheesy, but it makes me feel good. Prayer also helps me. I also have a God box. I write my problems down on slips of paper and put it in the box. A friend told me about this. I don't know if it helps, but I figured why not. I'm not religious, just a spiritual person who has the faith of a mustard seed.

Hope you stick around! Love and light to you.

[mab1219 in reply to Windy101]

i mostly play on my own. playing in front of other people makes me really nervous. i guess i could try random acts of kindness. dressing up makes me feel good about myself so i try to do that as well.

[Meili]

I've been there. I was suicidal a couple months ago. No reason to live. I decided to just keep living anyway and maybe a reason would come along later. I'm still struggling a lot but I don't want to die anymore. The answers are coming, little by little.

[mab1219]

yea i get the thoughts of not having a reason to live. or just wanting everything to stop. i used to hurt myself but i haven't in a long time.

[Windy101]

I understand. But go for the dressing up! I'm the same way. Depression makes me want to slither and slop around, which is not a look I care for much. Looking my best even if I don't feel my best always helps.

[Windy101]

One of my projects for the summer is to get rid of every item of clothing that doesn't make me happy. Then I can start on the objects that surround me. Oh boy, that will keep me busy!

[mab1219 in reply to Windy101]

i think i might try the same thing