Following my post a couple of months ago as the ' oldest anorexic' I thought that posting an update might help others to consider taking some small first steps
I finally went to see a GP at my surgery. My husband came with me, I probably couldn't have done it alone. It was really hard to say that I thought I had an eating disorder, I'm not sure if I even used those words! The GP wanted to have blood tests before doing anything else so he could eliminate any other reason for weight loss. These showed an abnormality in white blood cells and had to be repeated in two weeks ( the GP didn't get back to me on this, I saw it on my online record marked as patient advised and called in to book the repeat test!) Following this the same thing happened but had already booked another GP appointment to ensure another month didn't go by.
The next GP was helpful, he made a referral to the Gastro dept at the hospital for the other issues that I have which complicate this and also to the fairly local ED unit. As an urgent referral the appointment for an assessment came through within a week and from this I was confirmed as meeting their criteria and have been marked as a priority for one to one CBT sessions. I don't know how long this will take but it is at least it is a step in the right direction. To get this far has taken a while and during this time my health has declined and I am currently signed off work but I hate what i am doing to myself and how it has affected my husband and my sons.
Hopefully there is light at the end of the very long tunnel, at the moment I can't really imagine feeling any different.
However, without a doubt the hardest part was going to the GP and admitting to the problem so at least I know there is help out there.
Oh, that was a bit of a ramble, hopefully not to muddled as my concentration is a bit pants right now but if you are still there, thanks for reading!