I know this will attract a lot of criticism, but today, having returned to NSR yesterday, I did the Great North Run (half marathon).
I was doing it with a friend who is struggling with weight and health problems so I knew it was going to be an exceedingly slow pace. And together we would provide moral support. We were both once fast runners, and knew it would be emotionally difficult to become joggers and walkers.
I felt brilliant the first 7 miles. Kept my HR around 100bpm. Around 8 miles, I felt things start to change, and soon enough, I was feeling dreadful - dizzy, sick, unwell, moments of paranoia and dread. I really have no idea whether I had an anxiety attack or my vagus nerve decided to throw a wobbler, or perhaps something else. It's the one part of this illness that baffles me to this day.
We walked most of the rest of it. Around 11 miles, I went back into AF. I didn't notice any further symptoms, but I can see my HR went up to 160 for a very low level of exertion.
Of course, I know that it was silly to do a half marathon whilst I am on the road to getting fixed. But I am battling with my mental health over this illness, and if i lock myself up at home, I expect that depression is only a matter of days away. It's a tough call.
I am not planning on doing any more such events till I'm fixed. I will chill out from now.