While I wait out these last few days before my first Lupron injection, I'm having a lot of emotions; many at the same time. Not unlike my memories of getting married; or of burying a loved one.
But however I feel, Monday will happen and then Tuesday starts a new perspective on my life and love.
I'm curious about, and a little afraid of, the details of the medicine and the proceedure itself. But I'll get through it, and then I'll know what to expect for the next time in 3 months.
And I have my list of things that WILL happen to me, the things that might, and the ones that are unlikely to happen!
But none of that tells me how I'll FEEL about myself. What my body and emotions will feel like. No one has the gift of foresight, and everyone reacts uniquely anyway.
I sat down to write to you thinking I'd have questions for you. More info to help me not be so scared or sad. But I think I'm done with my questions. For now.
My job for the next few days is to take care of my emotional self and stay connected to my people. The medical plan is in other hands for a while. There will be more questions down the line as I adjust, but that doesn't start till next Tuesday.
So for the next few days I'll cry when I need to, but otherwise I'll do my best to sieze the day. Just like any other day.
Talk to you next week! And I'm so glad you are out there. You make a difference. Thank you.