Just wanted to update my father for whom I joined this portal was diagnosed with stage 4 Prostate cancer in 2017 June and went for testical removal followed by oral chemo for 2 yrs and after 6 months of oral chemo he went ahead with 40 radiation of 5 minutes each. Doctor said with this he can survive for 5-5.5 yrs. He was doing very well till 2020 july he got covid and then MDS was trigerred and then AML , just on 7 Feb he lost his fight of AML and I miss him so much. His prostate was still neglibile even till recently 0.01. Take care everyone and do well he left us at the age of 69 . within 4.5 yrs of prostate cancer diagnosis. I still feel he was having low hemoglobin suddenly after radiation and we kept asking the doctor he kept ignoring , we met hemotologist also who also said everything was well. but after covid he wanted to know about this and we found out he has mds now which in 6 months on treatment converted to AML.
My father is no more: Just wanted to... - Advanced Prostate...
My father is no more
Sorry for your loss
I'm so sorry. He was hit with a whole series of fatal illnesses at the same time. I'm sure you miss him very much. He was lucky to have you by his side throughout all that.
I was waiting to hear from you and Darryl you both were great support during his prostate diagnosis , but its all so heavy feeling now he was just 69 , life seems to be a challenge now
My dad passed 24 yrs ago and two yrs after an RP at 71 yrs old . I Can relate . But our fathers are always “ more” than a just physical presence on Earth . Their dna and spirit lives on inside of us . I love my dad as much today as the day he left . No more suffering now . Peace in heaven . 🙏💔😔
We are all depleted without the love of our parents. Who will ever know you and love you like that?
And will think you are the greatest and put up with your bullshit until it becomes the time to put up with theirs. Other than parents some of us do have dogs as well. Children, well that is hit or miss.
Condolences
Kshipra..Sorry to hear the news of your father passing away. I have seen your dedication and love for your Dad for last few years since you joined this forum. Praying for his soul to get liberated from Worldly attachment and go and merge with the ultimate source from where we come. Wish you and entire family strength to bear this huge loss.
After this in AML i found many useful groups for him on FB where ppl helped a lot with new medicine names and medicine supply but for Indian doctors medicine was so new to blv that they still did his chemo and they knew now he will not be able to take anymore chemo . I am so lost as I said no for chemo but they scared my father , my life will never me same again the heart is very heavy why him
Kshitra..You are right...Fear is the weapon used to scare patients to overprescribe, highly toxic treatments. And it is not only in India..the condition is the same in USA too. To me it seems that Indian Oncologists are a bad xerox copy of Western Oncologists...There is no original thinkers who weigh pros and cons of each treatment and provide individualized ,care and treatments. I understand it is very hard for loved ones who feel regretful about what they could have or should have done. Its part of grieving process. Wish you all the best and re emergence from this painful, emotional state caused by Father's Death.
Well said.
Words are never enough when a warrior loses the war against cancer. Prayers out to you and your family 🙏🙏🙏🙏
I sympathize with your loss of your father. After being dedicated to his care and helping him through those illnesses, it will be difficult to fill the emptiness. He was fortunate to have you.
I am grateful to be born as his daughter in this life . I can’t even be his 1% in terms of helping relatives , friends , workers , unknown financially and with his time during their tough time in life . He never asked anything back . He had so much patience , hard work waking up at 4 am and also keeping his emotions within himself . I can’t imagine being his 1% . Why was he like this ? From where he got so much time to help and care for almost everyone and how he could be so much patience even his last days suffering with so much pain why why why this happened if his karmas were so good ? Some people explain the theory of moksha ( free from re birth cycle ) then he definitely passed his exam . But I am so angry with God . I can never believe in God in good karma
I understand how much you are hurting and am very sorry for you. Please do not be angry at God. He is the creator of all of us and knows when it is our time to live.
It sounds like he gave your father a wonderful daughter to enjoy in this life. You will reunite with him again someday in heaven. May God bless you
I am so very sorry for your loss and wish there was something I could do to make u feel better. Take good care of yourself.
My husband and I are so very sorry for the loss of your much-beloved father.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your dear father. You will be in my prayers.
So sorry for your loss. God bless his soul and courage to the family.
You will be in my prayers.
A loving child is his greatest reward ! 🙏😔
Sincere condolences to you and your family in the loss of your dad. By your special love one can see what a special man he was. Peace
My sincere condolences for your loss. You are an amazing daughter. Please take the time to heal yourself. May God bless your father's soul.Graham
Kshi....the feeling is heavy now ...but in time may the heavy feeling lift and be replaced by the light hearted memories of the goodness you both felt for each other..i wish you and yours peace....bw
My sincere heartfelt condolences. Big hugs to you. Stay strong and look after yourself. xo
My deepest sympathies. He must have been a very good man to raise a daughter who stood by him and misses him so deeply. It's a hard part of life but cherish the memories and times with him. The pain eventually diminishes but never goes away completely. My dad passed 21 years ago and I still think of him every day.
Thoughts & prayers for strength & comfort over the painful loss of your beloved father. He surely was grateful for your loving care.
Dear Kshipra Kapoor,
May your dear Father rest in peace with the heavenly angels...You are a wonderful daughter who showed your Father your full love and tenderness and thereby you earned his 100% being......Now it is your turn to be your Dad....Peace be with you and with your family...
My tribute to your Father:
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My deepest condolences
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your Father! May he Rest In Peace !
Gods peace to you and yours
My condolences to you, your family and tribute to your father 🙏.
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your Father!😪
So very sorry for your profoundly heartbreaking loss
I too, am so sorry for your grief. I was going to try to say something poetic; but words are only words at a time like this. And your sorrow is all to real. May your father's spirit guide your path.
Dear Kshiprakapoor - my sincere condolences for you dad loss - May your father rest in peace
I'm so sorry to hear of his passing. He sounds like a wonderful man. He raised a wonderful loving daughter. I pray you can find peace.
i m so sorry!
So sorry. Your father was young.
So very sorry for your loss. You were a kind and loving daughter and I am sure he knew that.
So very sorry for your loss. I hope all the good memories of your father will sustain you in times to come.
It was very difficult to open this post as the daughter of castrate resistant and preleukemia who is fighting for his life and I cry daily at the thought. Condolences aren't enough . I offer you understanding of fear of life so such a beautiful man...the truth which is that he lives on in you ...but words fall short. I'm crying your tears . You honored him so beautifully in these posts .
Very sorry for your loss. Covid is a vicious illness and unfortunately with low immunity it is deadly. Thanks for sharing. May your father rest in peace.
Sorry for your loss it’s hard so hard xxx
Condolences. So sorry for your loss. Stay strong your dad is at peace now.
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.🙏🏻
My heart breaks for you. I lost my dad at 67. We were very close and it is a loss like no other. Your love for him will always be strong. We don’t understand why things happen like this but maybe someday we will. Until then, take comfort from those who love you.
Dads to daughters are like shrines always eternal and a beacon of light in the course of turbulence.I know you know he had so much more give.OH HE KNEW YOUR ARE SPECIAL FOR YOU ARE HIM.The strength he had is bestowed with and is transfer to you so maybe you could the navigate the light tower he built so have the power and wisdom to use it..You too will look in the sky one day in your time and And say I get it Dad I get it.From heart to yours we all have grief but you are not alone.God bless and your family
Very sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss and condolences to you and your family with the passing of your father!
So sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss. As others have said, you always carry him in your heart as you move forward in life.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss of your father. My mother passed away last year after years battling Parkinsons disease. I am thankful she is at peace and my heart is filled with her memories, where I find comfort. I wish you comfort through this difficult time. Everybody on this site is a true fighter and supporter, and we mourn all warrior losses.
God bless your dear Dad, thank goodness he had you. Sending love at this very sad time SheilaFx
So sorry for your loss.
As long as you breathe, your father will live on. He will live on in every life he touched, every thought he shared that is remembered by others, and in every deed that set the course of another's journey. Our immortality is bound to our memories. Your father continues to walk beside you.
My condolences to you and your family.
Kshiprakapoor,
I am so sorry to read your post. Thank you for letting everyone know that your father has passed. He was a lucky man to have you.
A significant loss is never easy to bear. We learn to live with it. We never "get over a loss". Family, clergy or friends can be helpful--and sometimes not. One thing is certain, to experience the joys, we also are subjected to the grief, the pain of loss--a bad deal that life hands us--but spiritually--there are reasons that there are so many beliefs that acknowledge a life beyond this one.
You will be in my thoughts.
Currumpaw
So Sorry for your loss.
I am really sorry for your loss. Can understand your frustration having dealt with a few 'top' Indian oncologists now.
You tried your best for your father and somewhere he is smiling and very proud of having a loving and caring daughter like you.
I’m so sad that he appeared to be hit with so much at once never mind a physician who did not meet anyones expectations
So sorry for your loss. You are in my heart and prayers. My husband was diagnosed in 2011 and passed away on December 5th, 2018. I miss him very much so I can understand what you are going through. There really aren't any great words to help someone through this. Just know that I hold your broken heart gently and pray softly that you will get some strength and comfort once in awhile.
Thank you for sharing during such a challenging time in your life. It is obvious that you loved him deeply and respected him enormously. I have a daughter like you, and I hope it helps you to know that she is an incredible support and comfort to me - and I am sure your own father was blessed by your love as well. Condolences .
So so sorry for your loss 🥲
So sorry for the premature loss of your father. My parents are still in my dreams almost every night, though they have been gone 15 and 10 years.
So sorry for your loss. 
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I am trying to avoid getting Covid-19 on top of Stage 4 prostate cancer. You seem to be a wonderful caring person and your father was at least lucky to have you as a daughter.
1.5 yrs back I told him not to go out that day he was worried for my sister and mother future that I need to complete 4 storey house for them 3 storey for commercial rent . He said he has a tender for construction project which he stopped taking since 10 yrs . I told him enough work it’s your retirement age take money from me as much I can help as I m who I m bcoz of him I am able to work and earn , but he told me no . Just before that prostate doctor told him you are all good and done 3 yrs mark now come 6 monthly just be safe from covid . He went out and got covid since then my mother and sister and father were running first covid recovery then got aml triggered from covid. I am so sad I am so lost I dnt feel like living why why this happened he was always so worried about all of us . What we will do of that property of that money . Everyone knows from where covid has come who has done that so many lives are gone but still no one is punishing the culprit
Your pain is intense.I lost my beautiful husband to this disease 67 years old … four weeks tomorrow.
I know where you are.
I haven’t been able to speak on a phone yo all the wonderful friends we have gathered together over the years, but somehow, here I feel safe. Surrounded by brave souls, men who face their own mortality …
I’m staying here
I’m going to read their words of wisdom faith and hope
And my wish is that all of them will see a cure … in my lifetime
I pray for you
They say take care of you
I am trying
Let’s try together
Bless you…. And God … whatever we all perceive you to be … please be with us all.
🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
What an irony I was thinking on 25 Feb my parents 40 wedding anniversary I will do a celebration all relatives and friends will be invited , everyone came few days before 25 Feb everyone ate food but not for 40 anniversary but to say good bye to my father forever , I dnt know I feel choking we all family members feel choking
Kshiprakapoo---my deepest sympathies to you and your family. Your love for your father shines through in your post.
Peace and love to you, may he RIP.
peace be with you
So sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family.
Kshiprakapoor,
I'm so very sorry for your loss! I -and many others here - know what it is like to feel like doctors have let you down, and the shock of losing someone suddenly who appeared to be doing pretty well. Thank you for fighting for and with your father - know that you did a wonderful thing, even if all you feel right now is pain and anger. Being there and fighting beside someone shows the greatest love. I hope you can take some comfort in that. Sending love and wishes for peace to you and your family!
In solidarity,
Sunlight
Very sorry for your loss🙏🏻
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