Whining alert...how to prepare for radiation?
I start Salvage Radiation Monday, January 6th. I know we all ask for prayers a lot here, but I sure could use some right now.
My anxiety level has been through the roof. I watched my Grandfather die of this horrific thing in 1987. He was 72,but I was 55 at diagnosis. I get to turn 57 in the scanner this week...LOL
I am an RN in major University Medical Center PICU and have seen my share of horrible deaths. In all objectivity his was one of the worse I have witnessed.
I think I was less anxious before my surgery April 1st, 2019. I guess I am still a bit upset that I had a good surgical pathology report. Everything was contained and the pathology was exactly what the biopsy showed, one 4+3, one 3+4. I sure was hoping I could have waited a bit of time.
I seem to cry at the drop of a hat. I feel like a blithering idiot. I guess my Italian side and the lack of hormones keep getting the best of me...LOL.
I know there are a lot of guys here that are way more advanced than me. I know I am not "advanced" by any stretch of the imagination, but you all here are some of the smartest people I know!
I am fortunate that my PSA has been relatively low since surgery (0.13 peak in October) and we are treating it at a very low PSA, but it has been very upsetting to go through the surgery and never have been undetectable.
I think the thing that really bothers me the most is due to the relatively low PSA, we have no idea where it exactly is for sure. This is making me crazy. I really hate the idea of going through this and it potentially being somewhere else. I know it is most likely in the Prostate Fossa, but who really knows?
It is such a toxic treatment with potential long term side effects. I know I am getting ahead of my self, but still...
Well, I got some GasX, Fiber, and 500ml Yeti for my water. If you all have any other hacks at tolerating this treatment I would be most appreciative to know. I take whole lot of Turmeric in my morning smoothy.
Any prayers surely would be appreciated. Thank you all very kindly!