sunday musing

[beatPC]

the cancer moves on

bested the drugs through winter

hateful their taste still

[farmanerd]

I felt a tickle

maybe it will be a rise

still a wet noodle

I think that j.o.h.n is successfully haunting me -- my haiku is no match for yours.

[farmanerd in reply to farmanerd]

I felt a tickle

but no rise. No matter since

her warmth is still there.

[ctarleton]

Each day I ponder...

Do I slowly Die today?

Or am I Living?

[beatPC in reply to ctarleton]

masterfully encapsulated!

[Kaliber]

wang dang doodle ....

lupron shrank my noodle ....

those opiates plugged my tube ...

gotta look for some lube ....

thankfully I can still take a ( kinda ) normal p$%# ...

hey !!! we got this ......

[Kaliber in reply to Kaliber]

woke up this spring morning fresh ( ? ) and alive ( ?? ) ..

still got time for a route 66 drive ..

today not crossing that river styx

taking my sweetie and getting some kicks ...

[Kaliber in reply to Kaliber]

no haiku here either ... but whatever ay ahaya aha

[monte1111 in reply to Kaliber]

Woke up this spring morning

Still got time for a Highway 99 drive..

Hit a pot hole, Got a flat, Drat

Should have took the 41.

[Kaliber in reply to monte1111]

sounds like you live around here someplace. 99 is a mess in the right lane, it'll almost tear the wheels right off your ride. I live near Sierra and Maple, been here about 30 years. you local as well ? if so to you ever hang out in the Tower ?

got a yard full of new lawn ornaments today .... wind so extreme it really made a mess around here y ahaya haya ahah a. air dense with some kind of fibrous looking pollution ... looks like a shedding wool mat on top of the Jacuzzi water this afternoon. carpeting in a Jacuzzi just doesn't seem right if you know what I mean.

when I drive up the 41, my truck lurches into the Chuckchansi driveway all by it's self. yaahay ahay aayhaa

[monte1111 in reply to Kaliber]

I'm pretty much in the ghetto. Olive and 1st. Same old house for 31 years. Go to Sequoia Brewing sometimes when brother swings through Fresno. He likes a good ale. When wife was still alive did the Tower scene quite a bit. Took me a while to catch onto the lawn ornaments! I have part of neighbors garage roof in back yard. I'll have to count the cats when this is all over. Oh, yeah, been to the Chuckchansi many a time. Got a room there last Oct. when brother and wife visited. I think you said you have Kaiser so we may have passed each other. Only 5 oncologists, all female (last time I checked), not that there's anything wrong with that, I have Zhang. Dr. Wu, nice guy, gave me the accursed biopsy. Hang in there.

[Kaliber in reply to monte1111]

cancer doesn't care where you live, does it ? all the houses in my neighborhood are aging 50 year old tract houses. they've been around the block a few times. My onc doc is Dr Arshad Ahad , looks like he belongs as the hansom lead in an Arabian knights movie. nice guy, good ratings on the web too. a kinda short heavy older white guy with glasses did my biopsies ( forget his name ) .... my abdomen looked like a stainless steel flower arrangement on the last one. my hospice nurse is Ms Rana Choi. met my hospice nurse in the same first visit with the onc doc. tells you something when your first visit with him included the hospice rep. no complaints with Kaiser at all , so far , they have been taking good care of me and making sure I don't have to endure much - any pain as well. they've been good about that. well .... sorta yahaya ya ah ... had my next Zometa infusion this past Monday and it's ( as usual ) kicking the crap out of me. dunno if you are getting those , if so you probably know what I mean. they are very painful and loaded with ugly SEs when I get infused. hoping to recover by this weekend or early next week. this stuff really hammers me but I guess it's worth it. next week I get the next Lupron injection again too, maybe I can ask my hospice nurse if she knows where I can buy a manzier. maybe we can meet down at the Review where myself and my buds hang out ... have some latte and people watch. I supervised the biomedical department at the V.A. on Clinton for decades before I retired.

[ctarleton in reply to Kaliber]

If you are really having a lot of difficulties with Zometa, you might ask about the possibility of Xgeva as an alternative.

[Kaliber in reply to ctarleton]

I saw my onc doc a couple weeks ago and asked him about it. previously he had mentioned switching me from monthly to every three months. I asked this time and he said that he thought i was tolerating it OK and my blood chemistry was normal , that he would prefer that I stay on the Zometa and stay with the monthly infusions. he said that my underlying bone joint disease was a major factor in wanting me to stick with it. I have a LOT of mets spread all over everywhere compounded by the bone joint disease ( which by it's self would be very debilitating ). when I got up this morning , I wasn't sure I would be able to walk. it was dicey but I have perked up quite a bit now a couple hours later. the best part of the Zometa infusion will come in a couple of days ( more or less ) when I will suddenly start to get my normal ( xtandi shuffle ) mobility back and it'll seem like none of this Zometa difficulty even existed.

the doc asked " why are you hitting yourself with that hammer " ... I said " because it feels so good when I quit " ya ahay ahaya haa ha

[beatPC in reply to Kaliber]

I’m inspired by your attitude.

[Kaliber in reply to beatPC]

thanks ... nothing gained by being all Debbie downer, don't need to be dipping any water out of that well. ... most of all it helps the family when they see an upbeat version of you. ayahay aahaha

[Hidden]

This was my spring haiku. I was feeling optimistic!

better days ahead

the season will bring new hope

celebrate with me

[farmanerd in reply to Hidden]

I need to remind myself to be more optimistic and enjoy the moments:

Scanning horizons

for the Decipher storm, but

I'm sailing in sun!

[farmanerd in reply to farmanerd]

I like this slight revision better:

scanning horizons

for the Decipher storm as

I'm sailing in sun

[j-o-h-n]

I don't haiku

as other men do

I laugh until I pee

We all agree, beat that M.F. Pca....

Good Luck, Good Health and Good Humor.

j-o-h-n Monday 04/08/2019 7:11 PM EDT

[beatPC]

supine

hold it still

let the scan dictate what’s next—

sprint or walk

in place.

[farmanerd in reply to beatPC]

Thanks for starting the prostatic haiku!