How do I not hate myself? Or, what's not to hate?

[Tormented555]

I can't stop doing stupid things, and I hate myself with a passion for it. Last night I put the windows up in my girlfriend's car, and left the key on, draining the battery. I've done this so many times. Now lately also when I go into the kitchen, half the time I realize that I've forgotten to put something back in the fridge from hours earlier. The other day i realized i left the window open all day, while the AC was blasting and it was like a hundred degrees out. HELP!!!! I simply can not stop doing idiotic spaced out things like this, and it just makes me hate myself so much I don't know what to do. What I want to do is rip my face off with my bare hands or go slam my head into a brick wall as hard as I can, repeatedly. Speaking of slamming your head into a brick wail, I am convinced that I have brain damage. It's that bad. When I was born, my umbilical cord was tied into a knot, a sign of things to come. The doctor told my mother that if the knot was pulled tight, I could have suffered brain damage from lack of oxygen. I think that's exactly what happened. "Born stupid," that's my story. Even in the womb, I was already screwing up my life. I would have been better off not being born at all. I can't function in this world, and it's the only one I know of, so, there you go. Cursed and doomed. I wish at times like this that I'd never been born at all, that I'd just pulled that knot tight and been done with it. I would have saved myself from a lifetime of misery and endless frustration and self loathing. People whose brains work right have no idea. It's an endless, repeating, living hell. What fun !

[Trailblazer20]

Find someone who can help you with cognitive behavior. I hear it helps alot.