I thought I'd post an update for those that care/ were following my progress. I'm back in hospital at the moment after another more serious overdose attempt. I took over 200 tablets, and actually ended up in a short coma for just over a day. I'm now receiving treatment and fending off any admission to a psych hospital, as I really really think it'll make things a lot worse for me.
Trying to see past this. But each attempt just makes me feel like a failure.
The rose in my picture is a result of recent attempts to distract myself. Drawing distracted me for about an hour, but I just end up getting frustrated with my lack of talent! If anyone has any suggestions for distraction techniques for self harm while I can't harm in hospital, I would be really grateful as I don't have many resources here.