Edge walking, again.

[Senior4merEverything]

Advice on how to make myself feel better hasn't been helpful or successful. I've tried to be patient in doing the work, but it has done more to frustrate me than anything else.

I want to see the other end of the cliff, that edge I keep walking is getting tiresome to me, I'm not suicidal but I'd welcome not seeing tomorrow's sunrise, if you know what I mean.

I've smelled the odors, seen the destruction, and participated in the damage-making. I've been a tool and a fool, and I hate myself for that.

Oh well, tonight I'll be berating myself again, and making myself feel like the f*cker I feel like I am.

I'll be complaining again, I'm just too tired to jump off the edge right now.

Peace, persons.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Morning Senior4merEverything

I can understand the frustration you must be feeling right now., especially when you've been trying so hard to follow help. I don't know who is helping you right now, a doctor or therapist?

Maybe a support group might be helpful, or having one-one support.

I wish you better health in the coming year, have faith.

Chloe