The feeling of unease and loneliness grips you even when you are standing right between 100s of people and they can see a smile on your face as to you are enjoying and living in the moment, but the reality of the situation is something very different. You don't fit in with everyone, every step that you try to take forward people try to pull you back.
Just wanted to share a personal story, have been trying to find someone to talk but seems like I am all alone here,
The job I joined recently, have been having a lot of fun in it, but somehow both my mom dad have been not pushing to work better but instead telling me to quit. It is a toxic environment, I try to focus and work really hard but somehow the environment just forces you to fuck up and get stressed. I have a goal I wish to achieve and really need to work hard to achieve it, yes people will keep pulling me back but I will cry, get sad sleep in bed but also bounce back stronger and better every time.
Am I a monster? What am I? 
Everything starts with a thought
Self harm. Help me please.
Beginning to lose the will to continue on anymore, i feel useless that i can't fix something that means the world to me
