thought splurge

[cornflakey]

tw // suicide

Hi, please i am not in any position or mindset of harming myself, but i've just went into really deep thought, and i liked the idea of 'journalling' this here instead of telling my friends, largely bc i dont think they would be able to relate.

I feel like i am a highly empathetic person, to the point where i can 'feel' someones anguish. I heard the song ugly heart by GRL and was reminded of Simone Battle, and her suicide. This then reminded me of Hana Kimura, and her suicide. Its just so intense everything happened to them, and to understand that they had experienced so much pain, and had to feel even more pain in their final moments before their lives were lost. I am just extremely saddened by this, its like you can almost feel their suffering, their loneliness and helplessness. No one deserves to ever feel that. I dont know any of you, but i deeply feel for you, and genuinely wish you all happiness, love, health and comfort.

~also wanted to post this as a way to express my sadness and thoughts rather than bottling and hiding everything

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HI Cornflakey, a journal sounds like a good idea. I might do the same thing. Nice post.

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I understand your feelings. My viewpoint is to tell myself that I am not helping anyone by agonising over sufferings which are in the past. So I try and focus on something uplifting to support my own mental health. Hopefully then I am in a better position to support others, and I believe you’re the kind of person who wants to help others too 🙂