Hello. I'm a recently turned 20 Male currently serving in the US Navy. I've been in training for 10 months (2 months basic, 8 months school) now as my job is more technical and demands it. I've been struggling lately. I'm getting sick of the same routine everyday but I've also lost the motivation to do anything new. I have a hard time making friends, even though many of them are dicks anyway, so I have no motivation to go out and do things with the people I work with. I spend most of the little free time I do have in my barracks room. I have a girlfriend back home but we've been fighting more and more recently and now I feel like every other night there's a new argument. But when we see each other in person, it feels like the honeymoon phase all over. and I still love her, and I believe things will get better when we're together more permanently. I also try to keep in touch with my best friend back home but our connection is slipping away as he's busy with college and work while I'm busy with training. My dad never really keeps in contact with me too much, and my mom typically will call me once a week, but usually will just get mad at me because I don't believe in god or I'm not the same as I used to be or something like that. I'm excited to leave my training command for my first ship, but Ik the days will get more stressful and I'm not sure if things will actually get better. I've started questioning the meaning of my life, and what's the point if I can't make something of myself. although I never consider harming myself in any way, I'm thinking I should seek professional help, but I don't want to because I don't want to be medically separated or held back in training if I have problems. Also I feel that it's embarrassing as a military man, I'd need to seek out help before even leaving the training command. So I kind of just bottle everything up and toughen out every day as if nothing is even wrong. To sum it all up, I've lost all motivation to really do anything outside of training, I don't go out, I don't invest in hobbies, and I always long for the day to be over so I can go to my bed and think about how useless I am. What do I do?