For the past 3 years I have felt disconnected from myself, been sad all the time or just feeling nothing. The last 3 months it has gotten a little weirder. I just feel empty. Like my smiles or laughs arnt genuine, I just keep drifting off inside my own head. The Funny thing is though I should be happy. I just got my first job and a new pet ( things I have been looking forward too for ages). But then again I feel like I shouldn’t and can’t tell anyone. I feel as if I would come across as a bitch or just over reacting from my teenage years. I have tried too tell my mum that I can’t express myself and that I get these little panicy episodes but it just didn’t work. I can’t go too someone since I have already costed my parents a lot with Acutane. Someone please help.