Lacking Passion: I've been suffering... - Above & Beyond - ...

Above & Beyond - Mental Health

5,482 members1,509 posts

Lacking Passion

BerryFrux profile image
0 Replies

I've been suffering from this constant boredom for a long while. I enjoy reading, but after an hour or so, I'm bored of it. I like biking and jogging, but I either don't go (for reasons I can't really fathom) or do and find myself faced with the same problem when I reach the end of my path. Beyond what I've stated, I don't really have any hobbies or any developed skills. I often head over to a friend of mine's and mindlessly hang with him for a couple days, but when I leave, I feel unfulfilled. Like I've wasted days of my life. Normally I just watch YouTube when I'm over there, and when I get home I do the same thing. I don't really recall what I watch throughout the day, the day just disappears.

I know that my extended period of time on YouTube is attributing to my poor mental health, but I have no motivation to do anything else. Sometimes I try to lay down and just think, but I find myself unable to focus on real life issues. Instead, I find myself lost in fantasies (Which are typically life-threatening situations, such as a robbery, where I coolly diffuse the situation. Often I get shot, but still manage to 'save the day.' Kinda dumb, but I can't seem to figure out why I do it.) and when I do realize what I'm doing, I end up getting frustrated with myself and attempt to figure out why I do what I do.

The result is just more fantasy.

Four years ago my mother and father went through a bit of a nasty divorce, and I became a bit of a recluse. I gained a lot of weight and became overall moody. 11 months ago I got a job, got into biking, lost 97 pounds (Putting me at 156) and finally developed some social skills. But still I feel unfulfilled. I'm heading towards college in hopes of gaining a skill, light a passion or something. Cause currently I have no desire to do anything. I have no skill that I developed early on and feel a bit lost.

I feel like I have a lot more to write, but i'm struggling to focus my thoughts. Hopefully this is enough to get a bit of help. Thanks for reading.

Written by
BerryFrux profile image
BerryFrux
To view profiles and participate in discussions please or .

Not what you're looking for?

You may also like...

Constantly feel bored and empty, like life has no meaning.

I really struggle with a pervasive feeling of boredom/emptiness - lack of enthusiasm for anything,...

Can anyone recommend a good type of exercise for depression?

Hi there - I'm new to the forum and would love to hear anyone's ideas. I have absolutely no energy...

how can I have closure on immeasurable grief that's as raw today as exactly a year ago?

My daughter lost her baby at 8 weeks and in the scanning room where the empty sac was revealed I...

What Do I Do Now?

There doesn't seem to be a lot of action on here, but I thought I'd just make a blog post anyway,...

I feel like something is wrong with me but I don't know what

Hi everyone! This is my first post here and I'm a bit nervous. For the past few months I have been...