Is this depression?

[cowgirl99]

I am constantly bored and feel empty, I use to enjoy doing sports and had a passion for dance but stopped all of them because I am overweight and had very low self esteem. I am surrounded with a supporting family and amazing friends, sometimes I feel like they don't want me around but my head does get the better of me. I saw a counsellor for a while but got frustrated because I didn't see the point and it really was not my kind of thing so I stopped that too. I like helping other people and getting to know others but when it comes to me I do not like opening up to people I never have really opened up to anyone, I feel like people do not want to be bothered with me and that I am just a walking burden. I use to take serotonin pills also known as sunlight pills they worked and made me feel great for a week or two then the feeling stopped I lost interest and hope for myself. I got a job well my first job it was thrilling and it was so exciting to go to work something new... lately I hate don't look forward to going and can't be bothered I can't be bothered for anything I used to be interested in schoolwork and always tried my hardest now in class I do nothing then get home and stress because I haven't completed the work, put it go until a couple days until it has to be handed in then rush through it. I no longer talk to my family and try my best to ignore them and avoid questions on how I'm doing, I make plans even though I really don't want to go but I know I should my mum says go have fun but I don't know what fun is anymore she says you can always talk to me but deep down I hate the thought of it mum says why are you afraid something will happen no I'm not I am just afraid of living in the life I have been given... what do I do, what am I suppose to do? I always make myself believe nothing is wrong and I'm only being dramatic do you think I am?

[Elmodfz]

Hello! From reading what you have put it does sound like you are depressed. Best thing you can do is make yourself a GP appointment and tell them what you've told us. If your family are supportive then perhaps someone could go with you for moral support and to understand what is going on.