The first memory I can recall: I was in a playpen, trying to escape. My brother and sister were both watching me, laughing because of how cute I was. I was so angry because I thought they were laughing at me, I wanted to punch them. Fast forward two or three years later; due to a minor inconvenience, I became extremely angry. I ended up making my sisters arm bleed from digging my fingernails in her skin. I was probably 5 at the time. After two years, I began to dream about my sisters both harassing me. Those dreams specifically make me so angry that I usually wake up to find myself kicking or punching something or someone. After that, there were a lot of anger related incidents, but they weren't abnormal. Fast forward to now - I'm having a lot of anger issues again. I'm working on ways to calm down but end up bottling it up because I can't find a technique that actually helps. When all of that anger escapes, I can't even control myself. If this continues, I will hurt someone. I also noticed that I'm acting really paranoid, especially at night. For some reason I can't go to sleep even after I search my room for something out of the ordinary 5 times. Other times I'm afraid to fall asleep because I get dreams about all my friends watching me and wanting to kill me. I told some people about this and they said it's just because of raging hormones. But i feel like its something else, but maybe I'm just being paranoid again.