The truth

[Xshleuu]

Hello, I’m new to this. I am 16 and was diagnosed with severe anxiety & depression along w suicidal intent. I know that I’m not alone. I have great friends who are always there for me, but I’m always sad & I know it brings them down. They don’t understand exactly what I’m going through & it hurts them not knowing how to help me. I’ve been distancing myself from everybody & they’ve taken notice, but they are scared to push me to talk. They think I’m very fragile & yes I can be, but when I’m with them I just want to forget about my inner battle & have fun, laugh. I don’t have that anymore & it just breaks my heart bc those small moments that didn’t mean much to them meant the world to me. I tend to overthink as most people do but I feel as if I’m on an entire different spectrum from other people. I feel so lost & empty. Nothing effects me anymore. I’ve lost friends & lovers recently & it doesn’t affect me. I used to wear my heart on my sleeve & it always hurt me so I shut down. If I don’t shut down my feelings are just more intense & that’s when people get hurt. I’m in therapy & I’m on medication. It’s just been so hard lately because I have no one to talk to that understands. Is there anybody I can talk to on here? I just want a friend I can consolidate when I’m feeling depressed. The thoughts that you get at 4am are hitting me midday at school & that’s how I know it’s not getting any better. I’m emotionless but I cry all the time, I’ll laugh & be happy but I know it doesn’t last. I wish I could just wake up one morning & say “you’re going to be happy now” but I know it doesn’t work like that. I just need solid support to get through this.

[chloe40]

Hello there Xshleuu

You are experiencing a very difficult time right now and I strongly urge you to contact any of the resources below, particularly Papyrus. Chloe

Anxiety UK runs a helpline on weekdays between 9.30am–5.30pm. Tel: [phone]

Beat run a helpline for people experiencing an eating disorder. The telephone number for support and information is 0808 801 0677 open 3pm to 10pm, 365 days a year, or you can email [e-mail]

BIpolar UK has an information and support line open weekdays, 9am - 5pm on 0333 323 3880

CALM. If you’re a man experiencing distressing thoughts and feelings, the Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) is there to support you. They’re open from 5pm–midnight, 365 days a year. Their national number is 0800 58 58 58, and they also have a webchat service if you’re not comfortable talking on the phone.

Mind doesn’t offer a crisis line but gives plenty of support and information.

Tel: [phone] (Mon-Fri, 9am – 6pm, except Bank Holidays).

Email: [e-mail]

Text: 86463

OCD Action helps those affected by OCD. Tel: [phone], email [e-mail] or find out about local support groups in your area.

OCD UK has an advice line usually open weekdays between 10am–4pm. Tel: [phone], or you can email them at [e-mail]

Papyrus - are a national charity for the prevention of young suicide. They offer a specialist telephone service staffed by trained professionals who give non-judgemental support, practical advice and information to children, teenagers and young people up to the age of 35. Tel: [phone] Email [e-mail] or text 07786 209697 Opening hours Mon-Fri: 10am-10pm, weekends: 2pm-10pm & Bank Holidays: 2pm-5pm

Rethink Mental Illness directly supports almost 60,000 people every year across England to get through crises, to live independently and to realise they are not alone. Tel [phone] (Monday to Friday 9.30am – 4pm).

Samaritans is open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, to listen to anything that is upsetting you, including intrusive thoughts and difficult thoughts of suicide and self-harm.

Freephone: 116 123

Email them [e-mail] or visit them at your local branch.

Samaritans also offer a Welsh Language Line on 0808 164 0123 (from 7pm–11pm only, seven days a week).

SANE offers emotional support and information from 4:30pm–10:30pm, 365 days a year.

Tel: [phone]

Chloe

[Koliadados]

I can kind of relate, with my it would be I'm emotional or numb, yet hardly ever cry. See the thing is, these feelings don't just appear out of no where. It can all start form one little thing and I think you just need to try and think back to when this all began. What could've triggered this. Think back to it and try to acknowledge it. We can't go back in time and fix things, but we can move on. Set a goal for yourself and find something that motivates you. Opening up to people may help, but I think what'll help most is opening up to yourself. Stop bringing yourself down and convincing yourself that you either don't care or care too much. Find something that inspires you. Change something in your life for the better, it may not feel good at first, but that's the point of coming out of your comfort zone. Don't just try and seek for someone that can relate or understand, but instead find someone who will listen and encourage you to do better. However, sometimes we need to be this person for ourselves. We can't always depend on others for these things as sad as it sounds. You can message me whenever you feel like it. I may not always be able to reply on time, but I still will do so. You're too young to give up now. Life's more than what you know of. Ask yourself why do you feel so intense when you let your emotions go? Is it because you feel as if you've been wronged at some point. Be honest with yourself and others. Sometimes being honest doesn't feel the best, but it's necessary so that people don't hold things to themselves all the time. However, before a person decides to be honest, they need to stop and think if what they're saying is simply meant to be hurtful or meant to help. Don't let yourself fall down this path of self-loathing. Don't push people away because you feel as if they don't understand you. Don't try to cover your emotions because that may lead to stronger feelings towards small things that aren't that big of a deal. The moment you feel sad question yourself why? whether or not you have an answer that cannot be directly dealt with, then move on. If it is something you can directly deal with then face this problem and get rid of it, or find a way for it not to affect you. Give yourself reasons to be happy and if you don't think you have any then make some. Find things that make you happy. It can be anything. Especially try new things. The same things won't always make you happy. Things change, people change. That is why it is important for us to change too, for the better that is.

[Xshleuu in reply to Koliadados]

Thank you so much for all of that, it makes me feel a lot better