Thought i would try and get a bit of help.
I am only 18.
I have now gotten to the point where i am literally just dazing through the days if that makes sense.
My memory is getting worse and worse and i also cannot remember things sometimes that happened 5 minutes before.
I am so so unhappy but i am so good at making people believe that i am perfectly fine so no one suspects anything.
I have reached the point where i dont see the point in doing anything productive or useful as i have the set mindset that im not going to be around for many more years.
I really do want to go to the doctors but i am terrible with talking to people and i am worried they wont take me seriously or whatever.
I dont see the point in getting up in the mornings and 2 weeks ago i was so set on ending things i ended up at the trainstation for 3 and a half hours.
I know it will sound silly but i am so scared of myself but then again im not at the same time.
I cant put anything into words, this is not even a little bit of how im feeling at the moment.
Im just worried that i will get pushed so far to the point where i do something i regret and it doesnt work., or than again it does work and ive ruined things.
I dont know if that makes sense? I dont know what do do anymore and i hate this