I cannot except myself

[jadeyo]

It is the weirdest thing. I am 26 years old and have never been completely satisfied with how I look.. constant diets, constantly trying to loose weight but never quite getting there. Lately things have worsened to a point where I am really struggling to find any will power to loose weight. As a result, I don't think about what I eat, and knowing that I've gained weight makes me feel even worse. Some days, I am fine. I look in the mirror and can feel ok about myself. Other days, I don't even want to touch my own body, I look down at myself in the bath and want to cry... here's the thing. I am a bit chubby but no way am I really fat. I can recognise that. The way I feel about myself hasn't prevented me from going out or socialising or anything like that. I just feel as though I have a constant grey cloud walking around with me, ready to erupt into a thunderstorm anytime. The feel awful because I have the most loving family, wonderful boyfriend and great friends around me, all love me for who I am and cannot understand why I feel the way I do. I would like to also say that I don't feel in anyway suicidal or have any thoughts of harming myself although I am probably mentally giving myself a hard time. For me, this is the most upsetting part, I am angry with myself, I wish I didn't feel this way but I just don't know what to do... I have started a course of hypnotherapy to see about changing this but so far I dont feel any different. My question is ....is this depression? Am I depressed? Should I see my GP? Thank you all in advance.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hi jadeyo and Welcome to Journeys,

Your post reveals that you understand a great deal about yourself and your feelings.

There's absolutely no harm in you visiting your Doctor, in fact I think it will be very useful for you to have a professional opinion.

I'm so glad that your family are so supportive, you clearly mean a great deal to them.

Please do check back for other replies and we'd love to hear how you get on if you do visit your Doctor.

Chloe x

[Natsteveo]

Hi jadeyo you sound like me??

I'm the same with diets too I also get angry with myself but to everyone around me there's nothing wrong but to me there is...if I was you I would take a little trip to your doctor's explain everything and go from there with it...hope you feel a bit better about yourself soon.

Take care

Love Nat xxx