Slowly Sinking

[honey97]

I'm completely new here and don't really know how to word what i need to say, so I'm just going to write my feelings completely. Ive honestly felt like i do absolutely everything i can for the people i care about and when they want it, they accept my care and help but once I've done just that, I'm suddenly not good enough again. I do my absolute best to support the people around me but its just not good enough for them. No one stops and considers my feelings, i just feel so alone. I'm constantly crying, seeking attention and doing things i shouldn't just so people accept me. but i feel like I'm sinking, I've lost who i am as a person and just want to feel better. i can have good days and do things with my family and really enjoy myself, but lately its just all bad days. Im always doing something wrong in my friends and family's eyes, i don't feel like anyone is there to support me, no one believes how upset i really am. I feel like the only person i can count on is myself but thats just not enough. i don't want to end up alone and everyone forget me, so I'm that stupid one who will always forgive people and over the last few years I've changed and all thats done is depress me. Im drowning and i feel like i cant get back up. Is the crying ever going to stop, am i going to feel better soon and will i ever be good enough?

[Hidden]

Stop doing things for other people and start doing things for yourself.

[Bluehair21]

Try and build up the courage to say all this to your doctor. You clearly need some support. Life can be difficult and people even more so but we don't always have the mental strength to navigate through these times. Be frank and honesty with your GP and write it down if that helps. There is help there but you need to get the ball rolling. Xx

[Hidden]

This is the world around you the people you know and don't know, I'm the same way show my heart and people rip it out, this world wants your heart I know that sounds crazy but it's true.....no matter what don't let this world take your heart, if you do this will cause you to shrink within your own world you will withdraw and become like the people that hurt you, I just had a so called good friend STEAL MONEY FROM ME he is no longer my friend, I was bitter but if you get too bitter you stay bitter, so in short don't change be you..just realize 99% of people are cold hearted and ALWAYS looking to get ahead and trying to to hurt you.....plain and simple it's up to you who you wanna be the 99% or that one percent who has a clean giving heart it's up to you............

[honey97 in reply to Hidden]

I think that's what I struggle with. I let things get to me so much because I am sensitive, however I just struggle to understand how people can treat you with such disrespect when you try do everything for them. It's the people I do things for and get frustrated with that turn round, when I try do something for myself, and call me selfish. So I immediately shrink and think I have to try do everything I can to please everyone. I'm just struggling with letting go of what people think about me and who they want me to be and just think about what kind of person I want to be and forget about the past, not let me past take over my future.

[Hidden in reply to honey97]

I know it's hard, sometimes you feel like not having friends would be better, I have cut a lot of people off, especially when they try to make you feel bad about yourself, it amazes me that they get something out of that (hurting others)...I think that's what gets me the most, someone that is so f**ked up that putting others down makes them feel better....crazy world...

[Hidden]

Lol I just seen what jimtom wrote, don't listen your who you are for a reason.....