Well having felt great for some time until yesterday, I could now explode.
I feel so bloated and tired and cant even be bothered to eat but I for myself to have something. Sleep eludes me and I have stuff spinning round in my head that I cant sort. It not that I have not tried to sort it I have. Its all very complicated as per usual.
I am trying to get in touch with an old friend who has been brought back into my thoughts thanks to another event in my life. Thanks to the internet and social sites I have sent that person a message and hope they may get in touch again after many years. That is at least some thing I could do.
The other bits again an email and wait and see if I get a reply or response on that matter. Both of these are finely linked. The third is my past come back to haunt me again bringing back bad memories that as hard as I try I can never finally get rid of. And the one person who I would have shared all this with to make sense of it has passed away. He was my rock and is my Guardian Angel and always will be.