I am a coffee lover all the way through my life to the extent that we now have a nespresso these days with all the various blends to keep variety up.
All the research I read talked about the anti-oxidant properties of coffee and the benefits to a more positive digestion etc etc. Even I used to think that a strong coffee before a morning run would charge me for better performance and improved weight management via fat burning.
I tried for a while recently to go to a half strength brew which seemed to offer the best of both worlds and did this for a few months and for a period recently the stock ran out and i was left with the super high caffeine strength alternative that my wife loves. Wow going back to that seemed to have a massive impact on my mood, energy balance and sleep.
I then decided to use up all the remaining caffeine free pods we have and immediately felt my mood improved dramatically - it is not all about sleep but having a calm and steady mind set and not letting the small things of life "blow up" in your mind and constantly become bigger issues. This effects daily life as the brain focus becomes distracted and less steady and living becomes far less comfortable each day. An ability to take clear and important decisions without undue delay is perhaps the single benefit i can see for now.
So then my light bulb moment of realisation that my relationship with caffeine needed to change and go permanently caffeine free so I can get the anti-oxidant and other health benefits with none of the really negative downsides to mental health.
If i am repeating the obvious to many of you then I am simply trying to be honest that I had never ever seen caffeine from a mental health perspective before in the terms above.