Another whinge I'm afraid.
I've had a tough old life, I've had major trauma as a child and two major traumas asa an adult... I've faced my fears, beaten alcoholism and quit smoking...I've taken care of me, spoken tot the right people joined the gyms done the yoga and gone gluten free....I've eaten the right foods and make fresh home made meals...
Yet my mood thickens...to a black treacle like depression which is simply sucking the life out of me...I no longer find any joy in the things I used to love...everything is like trying to swim in solidified mud.
I have everything I ever wanted , I've achieved a great deal too, a great home a wonderful hubbyn2 great kids, I got my degree as a mature student....yet I can't work right now because I feel so bad.
as each day arrives I wish I was dead!!!! Seriously!!! I really really do...because if this is as good as it gets I'm < -------- >
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I am hypothyroid and I'm struggling...I've waited a year to find some releif, but still I'm suffering...
I've out on weight my hair is literally breaking and falling out, im chronically constipated and feel like I'm living in a freezer despite the wood burner going on full pelt....everything is a chore, even brushing my teeth makes me cry....
And cry I do...every day I am crying..aching joints, feeling heavy cold tired and ready for death...I'm ready!!, bring it on!
If this is as good as it gets I' can't cope....I simply cannot cope with being like this for the rest of. Y life...battling with doctors who know nothing.
If anyone mentions antidepressants I'll vomit.....treat my symptoms!!! For gods sake I just want to feel better....but I hold little hope. How many more years does this go on? Should I just stop tablets and let nature take its course I wonder how long it would take before my body stopped altogether? ......I'm simply done with this crap 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟