Anyone else feel like crying? The sun usually makes me feel better....

[Fairycake1973]

Sorry for this but I need to get my feelings off my chest.....

As some of you know I have pretty low vit D and they are looking into high cortisol levels at the moment - got all the usual symptoms and have weeks when I can manage and then I crash.

Two weeks ago I booked 2 days holiday from work as was feelling tired due to lots of overtime at work, busy weekend etc - as usual I needed more so took 2 days sick (got the usual responses).

I had a week booked last week for a holiday to Malaga hoping the sun and relaxation would help - it didn't. I have never felt joint/bone pain (especially feeling like I've been kicked in the chest) when in the sun before and it kinda scared me a bit.

I am now back at work and am as tired and aching as ever and I'm just finding it all a bit difficult to cope with.

If I hear one more comment about how I must be feeling better for having been in the sun I may just have to scream......sorry for the rant, I just sometimes feel very isolated with all this

[Mia1057]

I think we all feel like that at some point. I personally am fed up with being told how well I look even though I feel exhausted and drained. Like you my VIT D was very low (5) but my calcium is high. I feel like I can hardly walk some days. Hope you get a resolution soon and you should always feel able to rant on here.

[Fairycake1973 in reply to Mia1057]

Me too on all counts although my vit D is much higher than yours so I can't imagine how difficult you must find things. Hope you get sorted too - it's a long slog x

[pipasawrus]

Fairycake1973, sorry 2 hear your news. I don't think people know how we feel and as it continues its like 'are they ever going 2 get better?' We are all hear to support and vent. So don't worry. Take care hugs too xxx

[Fairycake1973 in reply to pipasawrus]

Thanks - it just starts to wear you down when you know people think you're pulling a fast one. Thankfully the lovely people on here understand totally and that helps! x

[poing]

I'm fair and frazzle in the sun. The mere thought of a beach holiday fills me with horror!

We are not all the same.

In the meantime, have you read this?

blogs.webmd.com/integrative...

x

[Fairycake1973 in reply to poing]

Lol, we are indeed! I've always loved the sun and, although fair, have always tanned well and felt the much needed pick me up of the sun and heat....seems things have changed though Thanks for the link - very interesting! x

[sandi]

Oh, yes. Feeling so low today and very fat, which doesn't help my mood when have to go out in clothes that show a bit more. I'm drinking more and peeing more but still my weight is increasing - and I've been nowhere near an ice cream!

Usually the sun improves my mood - maybe you can have tpp much of a good thing? But better this than rain. I think the heat just drains the little energy I have so I am able to do less which always triggers feeling low.

Other people... grrrh! I try the "even if your car had no engine it would still look the same but wouldn't be able to go anywhere" argument but it rarely sinks in!

You're not alone..x

[Fairycake1973 in reply to sandi]

I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I've never been tiny or skinny but I feel like a bloated buddah most days and it is really disheartening knowing that you are generally "good". As for the drinking - so far today I'm up to 3.5l and still feel thirsty!

Like I said to Poing, the sun has always made me feel better and energised but this time I just felt drained and the joint pain (to the point of feeling like they were burning) was a new experience for me.

I love your car analogy it's spot on! I find explaining myself to people is very draining too - almost like I'm justifying myself and symptoms. Bad enough when it's colleagues and GPs but family is even worse (in my case my mum).

Chin up and have that ice cream I say!

x

[sandi in reply to Fairycake1973]

Oh ditto the mum thing. In my case it's both M&D. They do not get it, particularly that I've had to give up work. They sigh and say things like I've never been right since I had glandular fever - true, except that when I had that many moons ago they sent me back to school and never accepted I could still be tired etc. so I never got to see a dr but just muddled on doing the best I could! They also make it clear that not being right since relates to madness not illness.

What is it that wants family to think we are just making it up rather than are genuinely ill? I don't have kids - don't see how I'd ever have had the energy! - but I cannot imagine dismissing their health issues or prefering other people to think that they were weak or idle or mad rather than had real problems.

I'd be carting them off to the docs.

There are some lovely people on this site who talk about their concern for their children, young or not so young, and I'm so envious.

Ranting again, sorry - will go get that Magnum out of the freezer..xx

[babymaker]

i have given up on weight......and feeling tired is a norm......always cant be bothered...but do what has to be done anyway....wake up in the morning thinking ill do this and that today but by the time i have my shower i cant be bothered......i live day by day......its nice to see sunshine....but i am happy on a wet day coz i can sit and put my feet up at night.....what a strange lot we are!!!!