Hi everyone. Im not posting for advice but more to vent my frustration to other people who understand.
I've had a really bad day today, in fact my flare up has been really bad for the past 3 weeks and ive not been symptom free since before Christmas. Ive had this ibs for 13 years and over that time ive probably only been symptom free for about a year in total split to an odd month here and there.
Im feeling that ive just about had enough. I cant cope anymore feeling like this eveyday. I feel as though I cant see anyway out of this miserable existence and that is quite depressing.
Im not looking for sympathy. I am a counsellor myself and work with people who suffer from addiction. I really value this support forum for advice and being able to offload to people who understand. Share the feeling to create the healing.
Im usually quite a bubbly person but I have dragged myself to work everyday and I have realy struggled the past few weeks. I suffer in silence as I dont want to moan to everybody. I pretend that I am ok when inside I feel absolutely terrible. I got home today and just cried for ages at the sheer despair that I feel rigjt now.
I feel that I have tried absolutely everything possible over the years but with no permanent success.
I am currently on the scd diet which is quite harsh. Ive been on it for 5 days now. I've got 4 bottles of symprove to try but am reluctant to try at the moment due to the bad flare up.
I suppose I will just get up tomorrow and carry on, keep going, trying to find a cure, like we all do, hoping that tomorrow will be better than today.