Too tired to sleep?

[jsamess]

I'm not sure what to say here . I'm 67 and have been married for 35 years . 4 years ago I met a woman and spent some time with her . Walking on the beach mostly and laughing . Yes and did not realise but also developed strong feelings for her . I had a very brief liasion with her about 3 months ago and my wife found out . Since then this woman has disappeared from my life and doesn't want to know me . My wife tells me she will never trust me again . Whether it's the guilt or something else but now I cannot sleep unless I am exhausted . I am almost too scared to go to sleep . Any thoughts ?

[Splodge60]

I’ve just noticed your post was not ever answered here. I’m sorry for you on that one. Whatever you have done or not done will not diminish you as a person, but your guilt and loss will. I do not know a single human being who has not hurt others or been hurt by others. For you to move on, you need to forgive yourself firstly and then move on to putting things right with those you have hurt. Then, put on some very pleasant mindlessness music as you approach sleepy time and just find yourself drift off with kind and lovely thoughts in your head.

[jsamess in reply to Splodge60]

Thanks for the reply . Just going through a very difficult time . I feel like I am suffocating . Thought about getting some pills from my GP but not sure if that is best idea

[Splodge60]

Pills are never, ever the answer. Trust me. Drs have fed me every drug in the book over the last 40 years. All they’ve done is is destroy my liver. I know life can be hard but just hang in there. Try to keep smiling xx

[jsamess in reply to Splodge60]

You are so sensible but when you cannot see above the parapet that is the time when bad decisions are made . Just recovering from an eye operation

Today for glaucoma . When people say it's not going to hurt you know it will but just don't complain about it , thanks again , James Why splodge ?

[Splodge60 in reply to jsamess]

Hi James

I hope your recovery from Glaucoma has gone well. I see it was 5 months ago?????

Believe me, I try so hard not to complain, but I understood the Forum was a place to share one’s true feelings, especially if it is not possible to do so to family or friends. Have I got this wrong?????

The use of the name ‘Splodge’ is because that was my nickname when I was very young and at school. My real surname at the time was ‘Lodge’. It has changed again over the years due to marriage.

Hope this answers your questions

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