Lost another friend to sickle cell two days ago. I have lost over 10 friends now and I am angry, fed up and upset. It's a feeling of helplessness. I don't know who will go next and it's just too painful. I don't know if I did the right thing having kids because I dont want them to lose me. I don't want to lose another friend but I know it will take a miracle for that to happen. Sickle cell anaemia is a torturous life and sometimes it feels so unfair! I am so scared of the future and what is going to happen next.