Ok, so this may be totally unrelated but just been back to hospital and my neutrophil count has more than doubled and is the highest its been by quite a margin since I started Ibrance! Was at 0.7 last week and has never been higher than 1.2 and its up to 1.9 now. Obviously could be coincidence but these 'coincidences' seem to be stacking up.
Means I can restart Ibrance and stay on 125mg. Yay.
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A few people asked for an update so here goes.
So Ive just got back from my session. As I expected, I did find it hard to clear my mind but I persevered. The lady giving Reiki told me not to worry too much as its bound to happen and it takes practice - just to focus on the soothing music if I found my mind wandering.
As she started the process, she gently cradled my head and I soon noticed a sort of pressure feeling. I wondered if it was just with laying down but as she moved along my body - barely touching me - it followed wherever her hands were. I also noticed that her hands became very warm, almost hot. Now, Im not sure if I imagined it but I started to feel it more intensley where my mets were, particularly my chest (chest cavity mets and chest lymph nodes too). It was a weirdly 'nice' sort of pressure/pain.
After the sesh we chatted and she told me she (or the energy) felt drawn to my right hand side, interesting because primary bc was right boob, mets in right lung and pain from L1 mets radiates to my right hip and down my right leg. Id not given her that info before - maybe coincidence, maybe not.
She asked how I feel and I was very honest. Ive not had any epiphanies, I dont suddenly feel all things zen, inner peace etc BUT I definitely feel theres something in it with the energy flow etc. Like everything else, I think its something to work at and its my belief than any healing from it will come from within yourself. Its not like a physical fix, more like clearing of emotions allowing your body to work on healing itself. Whether its from some universal energy flow or psychological, well I dont know, but if it works neither do I care.
I intend to do it for 4 or 5 sessions and see how I feel then and if I feel its working, I'll do the self reiki course.
Have a good day everyone xx
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Im giving reiki a go tomorrow. Has anyone done it before? Im not 100% sure it will be for me but want to open myself up to as many experiences as possible and Ive read such a lot about a number of holistic therapies; just not sure I know how to fully switch off and relax. I did try meditation but the cat kept meowing and putting me off 😂😂😂🐱.