Retraumatization

[Racewac844]

Can anyone explain this to me? Can it cause a lack of identity, loss of self? Make you feel like something is wrong? Intrusive thoughts?

[HaBeBe7]

Hey girl! I just read some of your posts. I can empathize with your struggles. I'm also in a very difficult place right now ( both literally and mentally ). I definitely understand "lack of identity" / "loss of self". I sometimes feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. You're not alone.

[ismaac0712 in reply to HaBeBe7]

And how you keep going? How you be a mother, a wive, a friend, how you make other people to understand that is not your faulth... Nobody judme directly,, but i feel that they are tired, of my bad days, my lack of emphaty, my desires of been in bed despite the medicine... I don't know how I am anymore.... I just feel this pain, and doesn't go away

[ASACS in reply to ismaac0712]

There are days that I feel exactly like you, word by word. I learned how to stay away from people that were doing more bad than good to me. I understand people might not understand some of my actions as they didn't went through what I did, however, what I can't accept and won't accept is feeling the lack of empathy, mean comments, the "looks" because that only puts me more down and sad, so I learned that in order to be at "peace" I need to surround myself with people that are there for me, in my good and bad moments, because if someone can't deal with my "bad" they don't deserve my "good". Hope it helps, stay strong!!!

[HaBeBe7 in reply to ismaac0712]

How do I keep going when I feel hopeless most days? I know it sounds ridiculous but try to be compassionate towards yourself. It's wild because I would NEVER judge/treat another person as harshly as I treat myself. It's easy for me to be understanding towards others but I show myself "no mercy". I have both suffered with mental illness and witnessed others in their own struggle. I watched my grandmother suffer from schizophrenia and I have nothing but love for her. I know the "illness" isn't "her". I too, often feel guilty about how MY illness affects my partner. Some practical things I try to do "day to day" are take pride in small accomplishments ( i.e. even if it's just washing the dishes or taking a shower) and I try not to allow myself to dwell on past negative memories or catastrophize about the future. I still struggle everyday but I just try to find "healthy distractions". I'm poor and don't have a car, so it can be incredibly difficult. I also don't have access to professional help of any kind right now, so these "coping skills" are all I really have at the moment. I hope you find something that helps you personally 🌼

* One thing that has really helped me ( especially with anxiety/panic attacks ) is listening/watching relaxing videos online - i.e. mantras, prayers, chants - there's SO many different types and some are absolutely beautiful... it's worth a try💛

[Racewac844 in reply to HaBeBe7]

Thank you and for everyone that has responded. I believe I've been retraumatized and don't think stress or anxiety helps it. I feel like I'm a bad person, have a brain tumor or dementia because I feel different but have been going through alot. Currently my coping is Journaling

[ismaac0712 in reply to HaBeBe7]

Just thank you.... really thank you