We had Valerie's funeral today and I'm now sitting quietly on my own having a "medicinal" brandy.
The chapel was full to bursting with so many family , old and new friends , and those who met her briefly. She touched all of their lives in some way and she was remembered for so many lovely things.
It was a beautiful and moving service with tributes and memories spoken by my three daughters and all of my grandchildren - a celebration of her life ,not a mourning of her death.
Her favourite singer was Doris Day and we chose Que Sera Sera as the exit music. Some of her singing friends joined in and it was wonderful to hear it taken up by the whole congregation - an unusual event and one that Valerie would have loved.
What can I do now ? We met when we were 14 , married at 18 and then spent 60 years together. I know life must go on and I'll try to begin again but I'm not sure how.
She was taken by a combination of PSP and CBD , such cruel illnesses that wore her down. I'll do my best to help others who are still on this awful journey if I can and my heart goes out to you all.
I know the response I will receive from you lovely people and I won't be able to reply to you all so let me say thank you now for the support and love you continue to give.